if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

25 October 2007

back to blog..well..been givin myself some tym to prepare for the worst..been feelin alot better now..thks to the person who send me that email(:

been trg and trg and trg for e whole week..everyday trg..ltr also got trg at sbc..abit feel like dun go sia-.-..

today actually also got meet e parent session..but..ytd midnight aunt wanna give birth..arghh..duno is e baby helpin me or wanna destroy my day..been preparin for e worst..den in da end cancelled and postpone to nov..sibeh suay?

life haf been so siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..this few weeks..and good news..i haben tear yet alrite!!ya YET!..hahaha!!
ytd did told mum that i din do v well..den she kept force me to say out clearly..wakao..aft tt i just told her i still duno e results yet-.-..mr lee teach me de..haha!!

well..my upcoming event..
28/10/07-SKUDAI MATCH
29/10/07 to 31/10/07-CHALET
5/11/07-GEYLANG SERAI CUP
15/11/07 to 24/11/07-CHINA TRIP WITH BASKETBALL TEAM
20++/11/07 -PUNGGOL CSC CUP
den december still nt v sure..hahas..to be continued-.-

code:"prepare for e worst?"

i know that i care about you ... at 12:25

18 October 2007

well..im speechless..and duno what to react..
im just gonna be a letdown forever i guess..totally forever..teacher nd classmates ard are trying to cheer me up..thks anw..but i still coulden get back what i rly felt thou..totally numb and so torture for me..even now..i still can feel it...some ppl are praying for me..i also praying for myself damn hard..class..toilets..trainin tym..i just cant let myself forget for awhile at all..totally cant..it just like a paper putting infront of my eyes every sec mins hrs reminding me abt it..i totally can feel it at all..i wanted to say im tired..but i felt im bein so unreasonable..i know i din try harder,din try my best at all..but ..i rly duno wad else to say..just felt that im sucha let down..

aft sch called jiaying told her abt it..she wanted me to promise her that i can do it..but i just can say out from my mouth..that tym i felt that i duno how to say e word"i can" or "i promise" i just know how to say..see first ba..i duno..i totally dont have e confidence..things seems so not in a advantage for me..just hope miracle will happen...i rly hope.................

dont think i will have e mood anymore im just trying my best to show that im fine..but in fact my tears is still dropping silently

aint gonna blog nowdays..

i know that i care about you ... at 20:09

15 October 2007

im soooo boredddddddd nowwwwwww~

k ytd i slpt ard 2am plus..cuz rly too tired liao..so pengs..hahas

today woke up..watch tv..eat slp tv online tv tv and tv..hahs..well thats xinfang durg holis..

tmr no sch..think im gonna tidy up my room,do housework?hahas..maybe..yup maybe
hahas..

just had a chat with ee jia ying..abt mr tien transfer and den..abt my probs..k i dun like to talk abt things that will affect my mood..seriously..and when she talked to me.i felt like..tearing..but i never tear okay..i endure..hahs..that auntie always know wad im thinkin-.-" kaos..nt fun
anw kinda happy to know her la..shes e first one i seriously said to her abt wad i felt "so call abt my life" to her..not even to my sis lor-.-..hahs..u must e honoured okay..LOL..i dun talk much to others abt my personal things..sum reason is i dun know tt person well so i wont say anything..another reason is i may felt "weird"..hahas..thats me..but for that jia ying..duno why i will like felt like saying everything to her..and i know everytym i said abt my personal things i never fail to cry..cuz every tym talk to sis also like that de-.-"
but this tym i really endure..endure..aft e call den i..LOL!
but im better now..felt kinda relax..
well..durg e tym that ahgong pass away shes also e one hu console me most..so do my other frens..thks anw(:
i rmb she called me durg lesson..to check out im fine not..hahs..shock dao..and she told me that:" if you need to cry you just cry,if you need to grieve, grieve..don't need to suppress it..be strong"
i still rmb that..hahs..it give me a strong feeling sot of energy?i also duno wad e feeling like..but no matter what..she also a good fren cuz she never fails to be dere when my mood is..dots..hahs..
erm know her for not more den 1 yr..rmb first impression on her is very dao..hahs..opps..cuz that tym mr low duno go where..den she replace him for a short period of tym to teach us geo..every tym her lesson i sure slp..thats me urh..hahs..den aft lesson she will faster keep e lappy and walk out of da class..dun really talk much to students..dao can..-.-" but aft that..got one tym when bball girls haf earli dismiss to go for tournament..and when we girls havin our lunch..she also havin her lunch..so i called her..wanna like disturb cher lidat..dat tym i rmb
houyee ard..and one more..forget hu le..hahs..and she duno why say her ownself pretty..summore dat tym oly i heard dao..so i began to chat alot with her and den became frens..LOL..-.-
den she taught me bio blahs blahs..sumtimes skip poa lesson awhile went to art room chat with her..den told her alot of things abt our sch teacher..esp MR TIEN..e naggy one-.-"..den durg june she left sch and went to her U and of cuz im still in chr..hahas..craps-.-..

still rmb got one tym shun lu so walk home with her..told her abt my family stuffs and say that my sis very less go back home de..and den she suddenly told me:"fang xin wo hui zhao gu ni de"..wo jit tao never VERY SHOCK DAO!!..that tym i tot she siao kia sia..hahs
opps:X

nd just nw i told her that i know im not alone cuz i have my frens..but even if im alone..i still got a good listener like you..haha..i think liao i felt funny duno why..

well..mayb i shall stop here..alot of memories will still kept in my branie,nt just oly this but other ppls too!..(:
nights

i know that i care about you ... at 00:42

14 October 2007

i dun haf e sleepy mood now=.=
or shld say currenlty im afraid of falling asleep..

muscle pain is causin me alot of troubles..
lay down liao den i can spent ard 30seconds to get up..kaos
kena flu ytd while gg back to msia after balling..was drizzlin and deres long queue at a busstop bo bian so i choose to walk e gg 20mins de bridge..and was drench for ard 20mins..imagine how cold it was?..
so im coughin and sneezing like hell now..
dunch know why im so suay now days..sians!
coughing and sneezing causes alot of pain ard e upper part of my body..i tried to slp just now..and den i cough once!oly once..it kept me awake for gg 2 hrs now..imagine how pain?hais..i shlden be drench la..

so now..im scare of gg to slp..cuz i scare when i din notice i will cough/sneeze once..
pain la deh~

anw just rmbed abt e parent meetin session chrian gonna haf on 25/26 oct..seriously..im scared..really scared..from pri sch till now..deres no happy endin aft e parent meetin..cuz i either kena scolded if not kena beat..i really haf e phobia of parent meeting..and thats why i tried all my might to avoid e parent meetin durg mid yr..and im really heng dat i can avoid it!

but this tym..its end of yr..promotion summore..totally impossible i could avoid it..i dono and i dun haf e confidnce at all..after hearing that alot of us flunk eng..hais

shall change sub to talk abt..mornin went to work..with muscle aches all ard..and my movement damn slow cans-.-..carry heavy things ard..movement cnt be big summore..aft workin..dad told me got puppies near e factory..so i went out to search..infact..not went..but SNEEK out to search..haha..and i found this 2 puppy..damn cute la..black and white de..ard 2 months lidat..omgosh..i will find ways to pursude mum to bring them back home to keep..hehe..cuz its wild puppies ma..and so cute..this 2 puppies let me think of xiao hei and jumin again..anw still rmb joe is still sick..wonder how my poor dog was right now..being hospitalise gg 2 weeks liao..hais..

aniway..finally aiping has been discharged today..(:
finally can breath some air

well..duno wad to post abt animore..shall end here i guess..ciaos..

i know that i care about you ... at 01:11

12 October 2007

arghhh!!damn pekcek now la!!e stupid msia line digi made me so angry right now..wanted to top up but its not avaliable and it ask us to try again aft 10mins..and now..i haf been waiting for gg 2 hrs liao!!!TMD!arghh~

well..dun wanna tok abt it animore..
today wenta sch..no lesson..watch movie in aircon hall.."FACING GIANTS"..
e show as funny and nice too..but e main purpose is still abt....GOD!
yeap..hahas..aft movie went recess..den chapel..whole chapel period all of us sat behind and chats..hahas..aft sch went for trg..hu knows..suddenly RAIN!so sian la..so sat in da canteen waiting for rain to stop..and aft one hr lidat..finally stop.so we wanna go court..hu knows..when we just step out of da canteen..sudden downpour again..damn suay la!so coach came..sat in da canteen talk abt e trip..den do pumping..wahlao..startin trg is 100 pumping..leg put on da bench den like our both hands supportin e whole body weight of ours..pump hundred tyms..hand waist damn pain can..abt red liao..so pump finish..sit down to rest..den coach scold me say i never give pics..so i kena punish pump 200 hundred again..wahlao eh..pump till my waist red dao la..den backbone pain daooooo-.-
yijun also kena with me..but she got 500!but den in da end she pumpin 300 plus plus coach jiu ask her stop le..hahas..so aft chatting,went kfc makan makan..den off to 515 to ball..balled till 9 lidat jiu decided to go back home liao..sonow im at home posting...

anw chatted with my girlfren cousin just now..she wanted to break up with me just of one present..damn stupid la her..hahas..its been..erm erm..3 month lidat never see her le ba..mayb end of yr gg back and to visit ahgong tomb too..


glad that your condition are getting better and better(:

a true friendship cant be called as friendship when it can be replaced so easily

punggol csc cup:D

i know that i care about you ... at 23:02

11 October 2007

arghh!!!i type damn long den i accidentaly delete that post..wahkao

well..damn angry with myself this mornin..woke up at 5 plus in da mornin..den force myself to slp..so i from 5 plus slpt till 7 lidat..den 7 till 9, 9 slpt till 10, 10 slpt till 12pm..pek cek dao i give up and wake up liao..so wash up and houseworkin..aft tt wash clothes again..was day dreamin so accidentaly pour too much detergent in..haha..opps..so aft tt watch tv and online chats with antene..shes comin back durg 24 dec!awaits..ahahs

helped her to think abt e speech on planet earth..crap alot..but heard from her usa alot ppl died from heat stroke as e temp went up to ard 57 plus lidat..omg..cant imagine that temp~

well..so aft chatting damn sian..called out every one to go ball..and dad allow me to go too(:
so when i was abt to go out..mum said NO!wth..so nag and argue with her damn long..and finally she allowed..but nidda reach home before 10pm if not i nex tym cant go out animore-.-

sians..so went home court..reach dere..played 2 on 2..den 2 on 3..kept on laughin like madass abt our stupid actions..hahas..so den shengzi and meiling wenta rest..me stephenie and minglee played abc..last one to complete nidda treat e other 2 any food they had requested..no matter how cheap or exp it was..hahas..so play play play..in da end we expected minglee will be e one treatin us..but hu knows..shes e first one to complete..hahas..so in da end me and stephenie say dun wan continue e game liao..ahahs..and we start to shootin like ming lee de girlish style..danm funny la..me and stephenie laugh till cnt move nor talk..hahas..so aft tt..start to play 3 on 2..laughin abt our stupid actions again..and den aft tt we end e game and start to train minglee..and i notice ard 9 40plus liao..so rush home back immediately..thats all for balling part..reach home..heng heng its 9.58pm..hahas,so im safe..

baths and pack up..so now im here postin..tmr no lesson..but movie tym in sch..aft that sch trg and outside balling(:

yayness!!



pls take care of ur health urh..not feeling well still go wad celebration dinner..siao eh..now lying on da bed damn weak liao la..i dun wanna lose a gud fren like u urh..and pls dun let us worry(:
stay happy and healthy always(:

i know that i care about you ... at 22:56

10 October 2007

paper is over!!!!like finally..

and from now i shall say NO to books..hahas!!

paper over..results is another worries of mine..siansation!!
results will let me rmb of wad leong said..that day..which "punch" down damn hard
and e 2nd rule of wad coach said..

all this rly made me worry damn lots..and REAL lots

heard from mrslim dat my class bio results nt that gud..i dun even know i can pass not..
"WU NAI"~

well..today aft paper stayed at sch with yijun to ball..startin no qiu gan..behind behind slowly come back liao..played 2 on 2 with another guy aft that went home..reach home..slpt till 3 plus..den rainin!!aft tt aiping say she comin cuz she rotting at home so yup..came ard 4plus and she pulled me out to play under e rain like wth-.-..and den both of us wet daooooo..my flu haben gone..aft playin under e rain my flu got worst..thanks to that girl urhs!haahash..

and she wash up and headed back home ard 8 plus..and i wenta watch e 9pm show! den aft show slack slack and chats on da fone..now im here blogging(:

i know that i care about you ... at 22:29

09 October 2007

im back!!like im always do..hahas
maths paper to was..to me paper one alrite la..do till quite relax but duno got correct not..scarli whole paper one write rubbish-.-"

paper 2 jit tao nva TONG SHA BY IT!sians~..
how i do paper 2 lehs..quite funny la..starting page 1 page 2 i can do..den saw page 3..i duno how to do..so skip..page 4..also duno so skip..nd den..skip skip skip skip

jiu from page 3 skip till 2nd last page..like what the..so drew graph..aft that back to those question i had skipped..damn stress la!!so manage to solve some i duno how to do..but still alot dono!!and den anyhow anyhow lor..bo bian liao..last 5 mins went to one Q which i duno how to do..before that i stuck at that Q for gg 20mins la..so when in da end i calculate i realise i know how to get e ans liao..and den cher say tyms up..put e pen down..jitao i never sian diao!
4marks leh 4 marks leh!!if i fail alot of marks i wont be angry of this Q..if i suay suay fail by 4 marks i sure cry to death!!

hais~nvm past jiu shi past..dun let this Q haunt me down..hahas..

TOMORROW LAST PAPER!!!!!chemistry..like gosh..still yi qiao bu tong..-.-"
and i swear tmr i will tear up e end of year exam time table paper aft i haf handed up e chem paper!!and YAYNESS!!

books have been hauntin down me..causin me insufficent slp..and i haf been wastin my weekends to replenish those slps!!
and today i plan to wake up ard 7.15pm from my nap de..hu knows i from 4.15 jiu slp dao 8.35pm..like what the..no tym to study chem la..so yup..dinner..and watch 9pm show..nice(:
aft that jiu came here blog liao..gonna go study chem soon..memorisin again~~gosh

ciaos~

SIS!!goodluck for ya singin competition(:
im still feelin so slpy~i nid coffee!

i know that i care about you ... at 22:11

woohoo~

im back..its 00.00am sharp!!ahahas..so damn tired now..gg to slp soon ba..shall talk abt today
earli mornin took uncle bus to s'pore..aft tt headed to ntu..study maths..manage to uds graph!!
hahas..aft that 2.15pm lidat headed back to woodlands..meet fren..den meet awhile jiu headed to admiralty take cake and go kranji..reach city square..kailing fetch me home..but havin traffic jam..all of us damn scare that e surprise party for stephenie will mess up..so she drove me home..dater change and i went to fetch others to court..when e tym we reach e court,all of us rush behind to kuokuang sch to start decor..arrange e candle and im e one kena burn by fire e most la..aft tt stephenie came..surprise for her~!
hahas..she touch till cry la..cry till cnt blow e candle..cuz she tot no one rmb her b'day and no one wish her happy bday too..poor thing..so yup..blew e candle..birthday song sing finish..and its my turn to be devil again-.-"
cut a slice of cake..said that its my present..so i must be e one to cut and give her first..she damn trust me la..so when shes abt to eat cake..................
...................
...........



piak!!

her face kena cake liaos..hahas..and den i ran away..aft that when they are playing with fire works..i start to take another slice..and


piak.....!!!!

on aiping face..hahaha!!walau eh..she chase aft me for v long can..and den she gave up..so rested at pri sch class room with coach sheng zi ming lee and stephenie..

who knows??suddenly aiping came into e room tearing..den pull my hand out of the class say her bf come then what quarrel thingy..i was like kept seein wheres her boyfriend la..and also notice her hand got cake onot incase she wanna smash..but realise her hand no cake lehs..so i trust her la..den she was like holdin my hand damn tight dun let me move my hand sia..i was like saying you okay ma no nid hold my hand till so tight ba..den when i haben say e "tight" that word.....

piak!!


a cake smash my face from behind..walau..kailing smash me..so i was like went mad..hold on to aiping and say i trust her so much she den cheat my feelings..ahahs..so both of us strangle here strangle there..everyone machium watching show dun wan help-.-"

so aft 15 mins lidat..peace!!!

start orderin pizza and blahs..everyone makan finish liao play 4 on 4,3 on 3..play till damn funny and high..balled ard 11 lidat and home sweet home..wash up and now,home sweet home!!(:

tmr maths..die die liao la

i know that i care about you ... at 00:00

07 October 2007

been muggin at home this few days..but chem still "YI QIAO BU TONG"-.-
friday bio paper was like okay okay lor..tried to memories 9 chapts and it almost got me faints~
i not sure i will pass or fail not but i believe if i pass it still wont be gud enuff..if i failed i think i will fail abit ba..siansation..

friday aft paper rush back msia..went city square find candle and headed back to help parent work..reach home ard 5 plus and den slpt till 7..wake up give myself a half day break and start to watch tv..hahs..

ytd mum went back indonesia again..cuz now its e 7th weeks since ahgong pass away..sometimes i still cant let go and face e reality that ahgong gone..but life still haf to go on anyway..and i haven been letting go of any chances to do things that i really wanted to do..just like wad ahgong told me..

"要做什么,就要放胆去做,不然会像我现在一样。后悔到老"
i swear till e day i die,i will still rmb what he said..

well shall talk abt ytd..ytd same thing..slpt till 12 plus..felt so shiok cuz i haben been slpin much durg exam tym..wash up and start muggin again..and den aiping and xueling say wan come my hse prepare steph de present..so yup..mug till 4 and they came..prepare all those present and planins..and den headed off to the store buy sth..and den all went back home
night..watch tv..totally forget abt mugging..LOL..watched e show spider and den zhou ri ba dian dang..suddenly black out durg 10pm-.-..like what the..so went back to slp..till this mornin ard 9am woke up..slack awhile den muggins again..now givin myself sum rest before headed back to my "BOOKLAND" hahs..

code:"你的愚蠢让我笑了"

well mayb shall end here ba..ciaos(:

i know that i care about you ... at 15:24

04 October 2007

im superb superb superb sick right now!!

coughin like madness..and my "WALKING" nose jitao got cure dao aft eating those med-.-"
nose block summore..and both can!!breathing using mouth now..so tired la..exam tym almost out of oxygen!!

well..paper today was like...
ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh










speechless~
kena K.O liaos
paper one at least i felt i will do better den paper 2..LOL!


aft sch stay at sch to study..den we change venue..so went woodlands lib to study..from 1++ 0r 2pm lidat study till 5.20pm..den set of to makan makan at kfc..makan till 6.15pm lidat den walk walk ard to find candles..LOL..
aft that..rush back msia..went kuokuang to pass comics..and den..they shock dao la..dey tot im gg dere for trg cuz i took 1 mth leave lidat..wahahaha..and den..that aiping dun let me leave kept asking me write sth for stephenie b'day..den e taxi driver also waiting for me..so i just run away..opps..and den..that ass shouted ''ZHANG YU"..ass lor-.-"

so went back into e taxi and now..home sweet home..tmr bio..i rly scare i cmi sia..9 chapt to memories..hais
gonna burn alot of oil tonight again..

ciaos~!

5 down,3 more to go!!bio maths chem..chiong ar!

i know that i care about you ... at 20:35

01 October 2007

backie!well..cant stay for much long and type much today..cuz im gg out later to drink tea and study with kuokuang mates!..all of us are chiongin last min lurhs..hahs..

todays paper was............................

actually to me i felt okok la..mayb use to do this kind of standard de eng paper liaos..but hopefully i will pass!!prays..
and i did rmb to do summary okay!hahas..classmate kept remind me to do summary..hw sweet of them urhs-.-"..den diyanah remind me and i replied her that scarli i do e summary but forget do e compre question..LOL!damn stupid cans..

aft sch went to makan makan with jeslin they all..crap alot la me..den disturb disturb..kept laughin and laughin..aft makan makan went lib to study..and den off to met huiqin..chats at foodcourt for ard 1 hr plus plus..and den walk walk ard to see candle..hahs..aft tt sat at cavana waiting for ms ahcat to arrive with her formal wearin..startin startin see her top and bottom its okay okay..aft tt see what shes wearin and i start to laugh..damn funny cans..hahas..and den..went foodcourt makan makan..chats along..den left at 8pm due i must reach home earli today so that ltr can go out xD

30mins more till got ppl cum fetch me lehs..-.-"
so now i shall patiently wait for their arrival..hahas..well..tmr cheeeeeeeenaaaaa paper..im puting 80% of hopes into it =9..chiong ar!





in fact,i dun felt numb abt it anymore(:
positive is my bestie and negative are my enemy
say bye bye to sorrows and hallo to new happiness

i know that i care about you ... at 22:21

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