18 October 2007
well..im speechless..and duno what to react..
im just gonna be a letdown forever i guess..totally forever..teacher nd classmates ard are trying to cheer me up..thks anw..but i still coulden get back what i rly felt thou..totally numb and so torture for me..even now..i still can feel it...some ppl are praying for me..i also praying for myself damn hard..class..toilets..trainin tym..i just cant let myself forget for awhile at all..totally cant..it just like a paper putting infront of my eyes every sec mins hrs reminding me abt it..i totally can feel it at all..i wanted to say im tired..but i felt im bein so unreasonable..i know i din try harder,din try my best at all..but ..i rly duno wad else to say..just felt that im sucha let down..
aft sch called jiaying told her abt it..she wanted me to promise her that i can do it..but i just can say out from my mouth..that tym i felt that i duno how to say e word"i can" or "i promise" i just know how to say..see first ba..i duno..i totally dont have e confidence..things seems so not in a advantage for me..just hope miracle will happen...i rly hope.................
dont think i will have e mood anymore im just trying my best to show that im fine..but in fact my tears is still dropping silently
aint gonna blog nowdays..
im just gonna be a letdown forever i guess..totally forever..teacher nd classmates ard are trying to cheer me up..thks anw..but i still coulden get back what i rly felt thou..totally numb and so torture for me..even now..i still can feel it...some ppl are praying for me..i also praying for myself damn hard..class..toilets..trainin tym..i just cant let myself forget for awhile at all..totally cant..it just like a paper putting infront of my eyes every sec mins hrs reminding me abt it..i totally can feel it at all..i wanted to say im tired..but i felt im bein so unreasonable..i know i din try harder,din try my best at all..but ..i rly duno wad else to say..just felt that im sucha let down..
aft sch called jiaying told her abt it..she wanted me to promise her that i can do it..but i just can say out from my mouth..that tym i felt that i duno how to say e word"i can" or "i promise" i just know how to say..see first ba..i duno..i totally dont have e confidence..things seems so not in a advantage for me..just hope miracle will happen...i rly hope.................
dont think i will have e mood anymore im just trying my best to show that im fine..but in fact my tears is still dropping silently
aint gonna blog nowdays..
i know that i care about you ... at 20:09
