29 June 2008
tomorrow,i'll still have to wake up and face reality
im letting myself to rot at home,im finding room in my heart to keep everything in.im trying to act positive. im still finding hope. im still wishing that it was a nightmare. i still hope that in the end it wont happened like what i thought it will be.i know im still in a breakdown situation. i know i wanted to hate you but i cant. i know i cant forget this easily. i know it will be my 2nd scar. i know after this, i wont be me anymore.
im in a pain now. and i think it will continue for several days,might be even months or years.i really hope time will heal the wounds. but i think time its not a strong enough to heal it totally.
i feel like a clown,a stupid one
get me painkillers,but i think one is not enough,maybe hundreds.i feel that its cracking now
im letting myself to rot at home,im finding room in my heart to keep everything in.im trying to act positive. im still finding hope. im still wishing that it was a nightmare. i still hope that in the end it wont happened like what i thought it will be.i know im still in a breakdown situation. i know i wanted to hate you but i cant. i know i cant forget this easily. i know it will be my 2nd scar. i know after this, i wont be me anymore.
im in a pain now. and i think it will continue for several days,might be even months or years.i really hope time will heal the wounds. but i think time its not a strong enough to heal it totally.
i feel like a clown,a stupid one
get me painkillers,but i think one is not enough,maybe hundreds.i feel that its cracking now
i know that i care about you ... at 09:37
27 June 2008
life is unpredictable, from 50-50 to 0
i hate myself,hate my predictions, if only things happens totally opposite from what i predict. i dont mind someone taking a knife and stab me. i just simply hate myself for being such a idiot. if u wanna mock,mock at my stupidness.
i feel like numbing myself, feel like not attending school next week.
most importantly, i dont feel like going home, guess im gonna stay out again
everything in my life seems to be wrong forever.
i hate myself,hate my predictions, if only things happens totally opposite from what i predict. i dont mind someone taking a knife and stab me. i just simply hate myself for being such a idiot. if u wanna mock,mock at my stupidness.
i feel like numbing myself, feel like not attending school next week.
most importantly, i dont feel like going home, guess im gonna stay out again
everything in my life seems to be wrong forever.
i know that i care about you ... at 16:26
26 June 2008
for the two birthday girls.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE TO SHERYL TANG JIA HUAN AND BRENDA LOKE WAI YAN!
see im sooo good. lol-.-
anw hope u two will enjoy u all de big day and stay happy always(:
p.s:i din post on 00.00 of 27june cause im afraid i will fall asleep while waiting for the time to reach.lol
im super busy+exhausted for this whole week.. hopefully weekends im able to have a lot of time for my sleep. had PE tday and im v regret for not bringing my pe tee. cause i had to run with my uniform lah. kaos. and from history till now this yr basketball pic has alot of people. cool~
but the sunlight sucks. hah
anw nth to blog abt liao. gluck to C div boys(:
adios
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE TO SHERYL TANG JIA HUAN AND BRENDA LOKE WAI YAN!
see im sooo good. lol-.-
anw hope u two will enjoy u all de big day and stay happy always(:
p.s:i din post on 00.00 of 27june cause im afraid i will fall asleep while waiting for the time to reach.lol
im super busy+exhausted for this whole week.. hopefully weekends im able to have a lot of time for my sleep. had PE tday and im v regret for not bringing my pe tee. cause i had to run with my uniform lah. kaos. and from history till now this yr basketball pic has alot of people. cool~
but the sunlight sucks. hah
anw nth to blog abt liao. gluck to C div boys(:
adios
i know that i care about you ... at 21:07
25 June 2008
sometimes being kind dont help at all,people just dont appreciate it.
since young till now,i hate aunties.cause most of them treat gossiping as part of their lifestyle. but i feel pathetic for them,cause instead of getting something better to do in their lives,they choose to gossip about other people. they seem to be in a no life situation to me.
now in a different generation,youngsters begun to influence by aunties. gossiping behind peoples back. they seem to be even more no life then aunties cause they kept gossip all the time.like hey if u all wanna gossip, just gossip in front of me la, u all think that i wont know if u all gossip when im not around?hello,隔墙有耳啦！baichi
i respect u all,so respect us okay. i remain silent doesnt mean that i cant do anything,its just that i prefer not to, if not i'll become part of you all.pathetic lifes~
okay back to post.i wanna skip sch tmr!but due to the schedule,i've no choice but to go to school.so irritating. im gonna travel around singapore tomorrow to buy stuffs~
oh my-.-
anw my eyes closing soon,from morning till now. feel like digging out my eyes-.-
aiya,forget it. anw photo taking tmr!
p.s:okay actually im not v excited
balek kampong la~
since young till now,i hate aunties.cause most of them treat gossiping as part of their lifestyle. but i feel pathetic for them,cause instead of getting something better to do in their lives,they choose to gossip about other people. they seem to be in a no life situation to me.
now in a different generation,youngsters begun to influence by aunties. gossiping behind peoples back. they seem to be even more no life then aunties cause they kept gossip all the time.like hey if u all wanna gossip, just gossip in front of me la, u all think that i wont know if u all gossip when im not around?hello,隔墙有耳啦！baichi
i respect u all,so respect us okay. i remain silent doesnt mean that i cant do anything,its just that i prefer not to, if not i'll become part of you all.pathetic lifes~
okay back to post.i wanna skip sch tmr!but due to the schedule,i've no choice but to go to school.so irritating. im gonna travel around singapore tomorrow to buy stuffs~
oh my-.-
anw my eyes closing soon,from morning till now. feel like digging out my eyes-.-
aiya,forget it. anw photo taking tmr!
p.s:okay actually im not v excited
balek kampong la~
i know that i care about you ... at 23:08
23 June 2008
sch reopens!
okay actually im nt feeling exactly how i expect myself to feel one mnth ago about sch reopen but haiya,addict to work ma.hah
tempting~
first day of sch sian sian. i was like purposely to be late on the first day as i dont want to listen to any lecture or sing national anthem.den who knows in the end i reach sch they haven even started to sing and yet i had to stand behind at the stupid field-.-
lessons were like so boring.after school went for a big search on something,and im super happy i found the right size! but im scared that wasent the one cause i only saw it like 2 times? hah. pray hard its the right one~
i spend 3 hrs of search and then headed back home to rest. like finally home sweet home.
im afraid im the first instead of you
okay actually im nt feeling exactly how i expect myself to feel one mnth ago about sch reopen but haiya,addict to work ma.hah
tempting~
first day of sch sian sian. i was like purposely to be late on the first day as i dont want to listen to any lecture or sing national anthem.den who knows in the end i reach sch they haven even started to sing and yet i had to stand behind at the stupid field-.-
lessons were like so boring.after school went for a big search on something,and im super happy i found the right size! but im scared that wasent the one cause i only saw it like 2 times? hah. pray hard its the right one~
i spend 3 hrs of search and then headed back home to rest. like finally home sweet home.
im afraid im the first instead of you
i know that i care about you ... at 21:33
20 June 2008
im boredddddddddddd
oh man 2 more days sch reopens!hoho..can kajiao ppl alr.and i guess i gonna kena kajiao back also la..hahs
well ltr i got a big task t do.im asked to go up to my house roof and cover sth..-.-..dono what hell is that. pray hard i wont die so fast lol-.-
tmr working at amk hub..cui~
but nvm for the sake of my pay..gonna chiong..lol
hmm..currently have 3 probs in my head. my brain cells gonna run out soon..
more and more
oh man 2 more days sch reopens!hoho..can kajiao ppl alr.and i guess i gonna kena kajiao back also la..hahs
well ltr i got a big task t do.im asked to go up to my house roof and cover sth..-.-..dono what hell is that. pray hard i wont die so fast lol-.-
tmr working at amk hub..cui~
but nvm for the sake of my pay..gonna chiong..lol
hmm..currently have 3 probs in my head. my brain cells gonna run out soon..
more and more
i know that i care about you ... at 16:48
18 June 2008
im trying,trying real hard......
seriously im not tired,but i feel like pause there and dont move forever. idk. was super disappointed,made me untill duno what to say at that time. but hey im trying to stand up again and not to give up alrights. and dont worry,i'll still continue my duty and be 24/7 available for you okay. hah. i wont give up
anw thanks for being there all the time(:
cherishing someone
seriously im not tired,but i feel like pause there and dont move forever. idk. was super disappointed,made me untill duno what to say at that time. but hey im trying to stand up again and not to give up alrights. and dont worry,i'll still continue my duty and be 24/7 available for you okay. hah. i wont give up
anw thanks for being there all the time(:
cherishing someone
i know that i care about you ... at 22:35
hmmmmmmmmmmmm. i got tons of things to write but happiness is messing up my brain now. hah
well,shall talk abt ytd.i bath 5 times,cause i kept dirty myself if not sweat. den my dad scolded me gay for bathing so many times when he bathed more than me. well looks whos the gay now-.-
i was in a "over shocked" and happiness mood yesterday night aft i knew sth. and i was feeling super tired at that time,in the end i became super awake and cant fall asleep at night. so went to garden play with my puppy and slpt at 4am plus and mum scolded me when she saw me still awake playing with my pups while shes preparing to go work. hah
but then i was expecting myself to wake up at 2pm plus tday,in da end i woke up at 7am! I was super bored when i woke up so i went to carpark and wash dads and uncles car. okay i think few people are going to scold me stupid for washing car early in the morning. lol. went out to buy breakfast and then back home. suddenly having the bored feeling and i started to sweep/mop the whole house. my sis tot im insane when she saw what im doing. so when time reaches ard 2plus,i plan to have my nap. but then i cant fall asleep,so my nappy time will be gone tday~
cui~
was planning t go out with geron for shopping ltr,but cancel it cause im lazy go out.LOL sry urh bro!
anw my pay for the 4 days are quite high,omg-.- and plus im working durg the weekends..hohoho,im gonna turn to be a work addict.
他们曾说过，没有拥有，就不会有害怕失去的感觉。
但我认为，虽然没有拥有过，但还是会有害怕失去的感觉。
有时候一些事还真难去意料到
well,shall talk abt ytd.i bath 5 times,cause i kept dirty myself if not sweat. den my dad scolded me gay for bathing so many times when he bathed more than me. well looks whos the gay now-.-
i was in a "over shocked" and happiness mood yesterday night aft i knew sth. and i was feeling super tired at that time,in the end i became super awake and cant fall asleep at night. so went to garden play with my puppy and slpt at 4am plus and mum scolded me when she saw me still awake playing with my pups while shes preparing to go work. hah
but then i was expecting myself to wake up at 2pm plus tday,in da end i woke up at 7am! I was super bored when i woke up so i went to carpark and wash dads and uncles car. okay i think few people are going to scold me stupid for washing car early in the morning. lol. went out to buy breakfast and then back home. suddenly having the bored feeling and i started to sweep/mop the whole house. my sis tot im insane when she saw what im doing. so when time reaches ard 2plus,i plan to have my nap. but then i cant fall asleep,so my nappy time will be gone tday~
cui~
was planning t go out with geron for shopping ltr,but cancel it cause im lazy go out.LOL sry urh bro!
anw my pay for the 4 days are quite high,omg-.- and plus im working durg the weekends..hohoho,im gonna turn to be a work addict.
他们曾说过，没有拥有，就不会有害怕失去的感觉。
但我认为，虽然没有拥有过，但还是会有害怕失去的感觉。
有时候一些事还真难去意料到
i know that i care about you ... at 15:31
16 June 2008
finally~
able to sit down for long
PC SHOW ended!!!omg,super tired.but love to talk to the staff over there.they are super funny and helpful.and know a good friend name johnny,we are planning to work at canon next time!$.$ hah!
two accident happened yesterday,one guy trying to steal a portable dvd when im just standing beside it and he did not realise-.-
another one is speaker fall and hit on me while im trying to block it from hitting a old man,in da end it still hit him-.-.
aft work,clear my stock and headed down to admiralty for dinner with pig and her bro.
both of them are funny,her bro have so many craps to talk about.lol.and most of the conversation is about hello kittys cat,duno what chimming kitty or charming kitty-.-
hah.send pig back home and headed back bro hse to wash up then out again till 3am.then i wonder why tday i can still wake up at 9am.lol!
anyway,pics time
team kopitiam.lol
miss u all!
why recently theres a instinct that tell me to do it?
hais~
able to sit down for long
PC SHOW ended!!!omg,super tired.but love to talk to the staff over there.they are super funny and helpful.and know a good friend name johnny,we are planning to work at canon next time!$.$ hah!
two accident happened yesterday,one guy trying to steal a portable dvd when im just standing beside it and he did not realise-.-
another one is speaker fall and hit on me while im trying to block it from hitting a old man,in da end it still hit him-.-.
aft work,clear my stock and headed down to admiralty for dinner with pig and her bro.
both of them are funny,her bro have so many craps to talk about.lol.and most of the conversation is about hello kittys cat,duno what chimming kitty or charming kitty-.-
hah.send pig back home and headed back bro hse to wash up then out again till 3am.then i wonder why tday i can still wake up at 9am.lol!
anyway,pics time
team kopitiam.lol
miss u all!
why recently theres a instinct that tell me to do it?
hais~
i know that i care about you ... at 10:10
13 June 2008
yest was super tiring!alot of people and i kept talkin and talking with the customers.i seriously need pain killer for throat.i've been saying:hi,we are having promotion for rechargeable battery" when ever a customer walk pass.i think i said more than 2000 times alr.gosh~
and pls ppl,buy rechargeable battery from meh lei~
oxyride batteries(disposable).1.7 volt,2100mAh,good fuctions for cameras,3 packet of 4 which is 12 batteries for 10.90.outside sells ard 20 dollars leh~this has AA and AAA,price is still the same
reachargeable battery,putting ur batteries aside for one yr and the energy remain inside drop to 75% only!unlike other brands that after one year it will drop to 0%.packet of 3 of 2 in one.cost $27.90 for AA and AAA
charging kit with 2 free AAA batteries nd 4/2 AA battieries
there are 2 different charging kit
2hrs charging kit:can charge 4 batteries at a time,can charge AA and AAA batteries,cost $52.90
4 hrs charging kit:charging 2 batteries at a time,can also charge both AA and AAA batteries,cost $35.90
the reachargeable batteries and disposable batteries are sold at suntec hall 4 from 12pm to 9pm..under panasonic
anw i ytd found out that zf and amanda chiang are also working at suntec hall-.-..and johnny is a cuper funny guy,he thinks im 20 yrs old and he still dun wan to believe that im only 16..hah
pig:hey u try to come back on sunday early abit and come down suntec support me urh..haha,anw im nt gg online untill monday alr:(anything msg me:)
and pls ppl,buy rechargeable battery from meh lei~
oxyride batteries(disposable).1.7 volt,2100mAh,good fuctions for cameras,3 packet of 4 which is 12 batteries for 10.90.outside sells ard 20 dollars leh~this has AA and AAA,price is still the same
reachargeable battery,putting ur batteries aside for one yr and the energy remain inside drop to 75% only!unlike other brands that after one year it will drop to 0%.packet of 3 of 2 in one.cost $27.90 for AA and AAA
charging kit with 2 free AAA batteries nd 4/2 AA battieries
there are 2 different charging kit
2hrs charging kit:can charge 4 batteries at a time,can charge AA and AAA batteries,cost $52.90
4 hrs charging kit:charging 2 batteries at a time,can also charge both AA and AAA batteries,cost $35.90
the reachargeable batteries and disposable batteries are sold at suntec hall 4 from 12pm to 9pm..under panasonic
anw i ytd found out that zf and amanda chiang are also working at suntec hall-.-..and johnny is a cuper funny guy,he thinks im 20 yrs old and he still dun wan to believe that im only 16..hah
pig:hey u try to come back on sunday early abit and come down suntec support me urh..haha,anw im nt gg online untill monday alr:(anything msg me:)
i know that i care about you ... at 09:00
12 June 2008
hoho..ytd outing was fun,makan and watched indiana jones with em,quite funny.and annabell so called slap me when i was trying to ask her smthing-.-.but nt really slap la,haha..i had my revenge,but i think too hard?sry urh..
aft movie headed t sbc,saw zhengfang.nd i disiaosiao her agn..opps
was quite a fun day with em,and of cause im happy too..cause i din expect pig will really msged me..haha,nt bad urh u(:
cant chat wonline with u cause i gtg work.sry.and pls tc of ya health and rmb to msg me when u r free/reach spore alrights(:
p.s:im glad u called me old man instead of suah ku..LOL!
miss ya
aft movie headed t sbc,saw zhengfang.nd i disiaosiao her agn..opps
was quite a fun day with em,and of cause im happy too..cause i din expect pig will really msged me..haha,nt bad urh u(:
cant chat wonline with u cause i gtg work.sry.and pls tc of ya health and rmb to msg me when u r free/reach spore alrights(:
p.s:im glad u called me old man instead of suah ku..LOL!
miss ya
i know that i care about you ... at 08:30
11 June 2008
well,time passes real fast,now its the 3rd week of holiday,one more week to go!
later gg plaza sing for so call team lunch.gonna see them agn(:
anw annabell super naggy,more auntie than me..actually cant go for tdays outing,den annabell nag nag nag nag..hahaha..opps..and she asked me to blog out how good she is..omg,simply asking me to lie to myself..LOL.
hopefully tdays outing will be full with joy
tmr gonna start work agn,for the sake of money,gonna bear with it-.-..jia u nxf!
to peeps!im selling rechargeable battery at suntec level four,pls come and buy from me lurh~thurs till sunday(: PC SHOW
anw pig,this small parag for ya okay...see i sooo good(:
haha,tday u went oversea urh,jialat liao la,thurs to sunday there will be no one sms me to crap liao leh..haha.and please come back in a piece okay.hah.
today will be a happy plus sad day
later gg plaza sing for so call team lunch.gonna see them agn(:
anw annabell super naggy,more auntie than me..actually cant go for tdays outing,den annabell nag nag nag nag..hahaha..opps..and she asked me to blog out how good she is..omg,simply asking me to lie to myself..LOL.
hopefully tdays outing will be full with joy
tmr gonna start work agn,for the sake of money,gonna bear with it-.-..jia u nxf!
to peeps!im selling rechargeable battery at suntec level four,pls come and buy from me lurh~thurs till sunday(: PC SHOW
anw pig,this small parag for ya okay...see i sooo good(:
haha,tday u went oversea urh,jialat liao la,thurs to sunday there will be no one sms me to crap liao leh..haha.and please come back in a piece okay.hah.
today will be a happy plus sad day
i know that i care about you ... at 11:35
09 June 2008
at last,finally able to sit down for long.hah
well,i manage to sell one fcuking vacuum,but then this dosent matter much to me,cause ppl over there was funny,esp hans
i was asking him,:"u last time take a level or poly?
nd hesaid:"i take PHD."
then i was like:"WOAH!
he added on:"alamak u dont woah la,my PHD very special one.my PHD is POLY HALFWAY DROPOUT.haha"
me and rest of the staffs:DIAO-.-"
hans super crap,haha.learn quite alot from em.and these two days i were watching channel five,simpsons and kungfu pangda trailers,super funny pls slack,cause its like every 30min gt 1 or 2 customers walk pass oly-.-..
anw tmr gg for panasonic interview,then thurs selling panasonic batt..haha
i think when sch reopens,i wont mind teacher punish me to stand,cause i think by that time i will be used to standing..LOL
well,i manage to sell one fcuking vacuum,but then this dosent matter much to me,cause ppl over there was funny,esp hans
i was asking him,:"u last time take a level or poly?
nd hesaid:"i take PHD."
then i was like:"WOAH!
he added on:"alamak u dont woah la,my PHD very special one.my PHD is POLY HALFWAY DROPOUT.haha"
me and rest of the staffs:DIAO-.-"
hans super crap,haha.learn quite alot from em.and these two days i were watching channel five,simpsons and kungfu pangda trailers,super funny pls slack,cause its like every 30min gt 1 or 2 customers walk pass oly-.-..
anw tmr gg for panasonic interview,then thurs selling panasonic batt..haha
i think when sch reopens,i wont mind teacher punish me to stand,cause i think by that time i will be used to standing..LOL
i know that i care about you ... at 20:01
06 June 2008
for your sake(:
ltr theres match against tnet.hopefully its not the last.and what i promised you i'll do it okay(:
was feeling quite down ytd,compare to now.no diff,but i wont let this affect me.i gonna change my court attitude and jia you!
well i'll be workin this weekend and 12 to 15 june.i wanna occupied myself durg this june holis,i dont want to slack and start thinking things thats crap.sometimes,i feel like stopping down and take a deep breath,but it dosent help much anyway.i guess i gt tons of things to reflect.
pls bless team killiney,and jiayou teammates(:
i guess i gonna start to miss....
ltr theres match against tnet.hopefully its not the last.and what i promised you i'll do it okay(:
was feeling quite down ytd,compare to now.no diff,but i wont let this affect me.i gonna change my court attitude and jia you!
well i'll be workin this weekend and 12 to 15 june.i wanna occupied myself durg this june holis,i dont want to slack and start thinking things thats crap.sometimes,i feel like stopping down and take a deep breath,but it dosent help much anyway.i guess i gt tons of things to reflect.
pls bless team killiney,and jiayou teammates(:
i guess i gonna start to miss....
i know that i care about you ... at 11:59
03 June 2008
din manage to win e first match.i played badly.those passes i've made.even myself think of it also..haiz..gonna jia u for e remaining two
anw coach look v sick,kinda worry abt it.i've been thinking will sth happen to coach..hopefuly not.im scared abt it sometimes.
just now wenta see doc abt my finger injury.kaos he bandage my hand till like so stupid-.-.i'll try to play with a bandage hand..if nt,i'll take it out tmr.
anw i haven name my puppy yet..omg they are so cute daooooo..i see them also buay tahan..hahs.
go team killiney!!
if u let me choose,100% of my ans will be you
anw coach look v sick,kinda worry abt it.i've been thinking will sth happen to coach..hopefuly not.im scared abt it sometimes.
just now wenta see doc abt my finger injury.kaos he bandage my hand till like so stupid-.-.i'll try to play with a bandage hand..if nt,i'll take it out tmr.
anw i haven name my puppy yet..omg they are so cute daooooo..i see them also buay tahan..hahs.
go team killiney!!
if u let me choose,100% of my ans will be you
i know that i care about you ... at 23:29
02 June 2008
my 4th day staying in singapore.
p.s:i sound like some tourist-.-
my first day work ytd was like......tired!
nt bcause alot of customers,but i must stand from 2pm to 10pm..except for break time la.i din even leave my area for like more then 10steps-.-
so ytd i realise,invention of chair is really a good idea!hah
anw,my products were message chair and some slimming machine,idk its name la-.-.
i've counted,i gt 27 customers almost more then half of it asked me to baby sit their child while they went to choose e lcd tv they liked.like wth-.-..i look like a nanny more then selling electronic products
but theres some customers quite funny.eg:
theres this maid and a boy.
BOY:*came over and sit on the slimming machine*
MAID:*follows e boy*
ME:*turn on the machine*
.......aft 10 mins......
both of em plans to leave.
MAID:ahboy,say bye bye to jiejie
BOY:bye bye KORKOR..
wth,i was like laughing la,den e maid scolded the lill boy.so cute
anw,angmohs are good customers(:
haha
first match on YC starting ltr.gonna jiayou for sure
god bless team killiney!
pls grant me a wish.
i swear i'll love you for sure(:
p.s:i sound like some tourist-.-
my first day work ytd was like......tired!
nt bcause alot of customers,but i must stand from 2pm to 10pm..except for break time la.i din even leave my area for like more then 10steps-.-
so ytd i realise,invention of chair is really a good idea!hah
anw,my products were message chair and some slimming machine,idk its name la-.-.
i've counted,i gt 27 customers almost more then half of it asked me to baby sit their child while they went to choose e lcd tv they liked.like wth-.-..i look like a nanny more then selling electronic products
but theres some customers quite funny.eg:
theres this maid and a boy.
BOY:*came over and sit on the slimming machine*
MAID:*follows e boy*
ME:*turn on the machine*
.......aft 10 mins......
both of em plans to leave.
MAID:ahboy,say bye bye to jiejie
BOY:bye bye KORKOR..
wth,i was like laughing la,den e maid scolded the lill boy.so cute
anw,angmohs are good customers(:
haha
first match on YC starting ltr.gonna jiayou for sure
god bless team killiney!
pls grant me a wish.
i swear i'll love you for sure(:
i know that i care about you ... at 11:02
