29 June 2008
tomorrow,i'll still have to wake up and face reality
im letting myself to rot at home,im finding room in my heart to keep everything in.im trying to act positive. im still finding hope. im still wishing that it was a nightmare. i still hope that in the end it wont happened like what i thought it will be.i know im still in a breakdown situation. i know i wanted to hate you but i cant. i know i cant forget this easily. i know it will be my 2nd scar. i know after this, i wont be me anymore.
im in a pain now. and i think it will continue for several days,might be even months or years.i really hope time will heal the wounds. but i think time its not a strong enough to heal it totally.
i feel like a clown,a stupid one
get me painkillers,but i think one is not enough,maybe hundreds.i feel that its cracking now
im letting myself to rot at home,im finding room in my heart to keep everything in.im trying to act positive. im still finding hope. im still wishing that it was a nightmare. i still hope that in the end it wont happened like what i thought it will be.i know im still in a breakdown situation. i know i wanted to hate you but i cant. i know i cant forget this easily. i know it will be my 2nd scar. i know after this, i wont be me anymore.
im in a pain now. and i think it will continue for several days,might be even months or years.i really hope time will heal the wounds. but i think time its not a strong enough to heal it totally.
i feel like a clown,a stupid one
get me painkillers,but i think one is not enough,maybe hundreds.i feel that its cracking now
i know that i care about you ... at 09:37
