31 October 2008
i've not been sleeping well for the pass few days.or shld say i don feel like sleeping at all.
alot of things just run through my mind thinking who deserve the chance and who dont.
and i've made my mind today.
some will be sacrifice and im truely sorry because i feel unfair for you if i've given you the chance.
i dont want to be distracted by all this anymore.
i think from the begaining i dont have any options at all.
everything is planned for me and theres no other way.
i hate all this.
i want to have a choice thats what i only wish for.
if thats about me,i dont see any wrong about the past.
life is about what we want and what we desire.
not about what is right and the stupid rules.
if what u're doing is right but u are not happy.
whats the point of it when u are not doing for yourself but others?
you are you and no one can control you.
i've said sorry is not i want from you.
i wanna see you happy but u're not truely happy at all.
if a wish was given to me,i will want you back.
i want to tell you im still waiting.
alot of things just run through my mind thinking who deserve the chance and who dont.
and i've made my mind today.
some will be sacrifice and im truely sorry because i feel unfair for you if i've given you the chance.
i dont want to be distracted by all this anymore.
i think from the begaining i dont have any options at all.
everything is planned for me and theres no other way.
i hate all this.
i want to have a choice thats what i only wish for.
if thats about me,i dont see any wrong about the past.
life is about what we want and what we desire.
not about what is right and the stupid rules.
if what u're doing is right but u are not happy.
whats the point of it when u are not doing for yourself but others?
you are you and no one can control you.
i've said sorry is not i want from you.
i wanna see you happy but u're not truely happy at all.
if a wish was given to me,i will want you back.
i want to tell you im still waiting.
i know that i care about you ... at 07:38
29 October 2008
totally breakdown yo!
oh man i feel bad blogging now instead of rushing to sch for holi lesson.
but too bad i overslept and i think i plan to skip todays lesson because of that.haha
finally able to rest for few days.trg later on.i think i'll vomit blood-.-
and ya mon and tues work is so irritating.
monday went jp roadshow.we got our booth but the key is not with us so me and ivy sat down there do and do nothing for 2 hrs.in the end the staffs told us key is at east point.so we cab down to east from west and back to west agn.so stupid-.-
ytd is miss van hit me.tsktsk.big bully
and oh ya i saw auntie yan too(:
i need more things to dooooooo!!!!!!i wna occupied my brainie
為你守候
那是因為我已經看透
沒有你的愛
這個我只是一半
不哭了不笑了
為誰努力我也不明白
沒有人能取代
一個圓的另一半
我固執地等待
等風再把你帶回來
theres so many things i want to say to you
but it seem so difficult to let it come out of my mouth
oh man i feel bad blogging now instead of rushing to sch for holi lesson.
but too bad i overslept and i think i plan to skip todays lesson because of that.haha
finally able to rest for few days.trg later on.i think i'll vomit blood-.-
and ya mon and tues work is so irritating.
monday went jp roadshow.we got our booth but the key is not with us so me and ivy sat down there do and do nothing for 2 hrs.in the end the staffs told us key is at east point.so we cab down to east from west and back to west agn.so stupid-.-
ytd is miss van hit me.tsktsk.big bully
and oh ya i saw auntie yan too(:
i need more things to dooooooo!!!!!!i wna occupied my brainie
為你守候
那是因為我已經看透
沒有你的愛
這個我只是一半
不哭了不笑了
為誰努力我也不明白
沒有人能取代
一個圓的另一半
我固執地等待
等風再把你帶回來
theres so many things i want to say to you
but it seem so difficult to let it come out of my mouth
i know that i care about you ... at 09:05
25 October 2008
no matter how hurting it is i must endure.
no matter how weak i am i must stand strong.
its not the end yet.its just the begaining.
im not going to run away cause i've been facing all the problems.
im standing up instead of falling down.
u made me realised something.and i'll forever remember it
dont say sorry anymore because thats not the word i want to hear.
just be happy after all this alright(:
thanks for everything and the memories(:
hmmm time pass real fast today.some staffs over there attitude sucks.but aiyurh tmr last day..heck care.haha.
im gonna work work work till tues.oh man i dont dare to sell camera and idk why-.-"
我只希望你会开心。
dont forget no matter what happens i'll always be there alright my dear best friend(:
要一起加油！
no matter how weak i am i must stand strong.
its not the end yet.its just the begaining.
im not going to run away cause i've been facing all the problems.
im standing up instead of falling down.
u made me realised something.and i'll forever remember it
dont say sorry anymore because thats not the word i want to hear.
just be happy after all this alright(:
thanks for everything and the memories(:
hmmm time pass real fast today.some staffs over there attitude sucks.but aiyurh tmr last day..heck care.haha.
im gonna work work work till tues.oh man i dont dare to sell camera and idk why-.-"
我只希望你会开心。
dont forget no matter what happens i'll always be there alright my dear best friend(:
要一起加油！
i know that i care about you ... at 21:14
23 October 2008
pls let tmr be a better day
eoy holiday begains.i should be happy now and going out to play blah blah blah.
but then it seems like i dont have mood for anyth at all.
ytd had friendly game with ahmad imbrahim.we won by luck i guess?
i even requested coach to bench me for 1 quarter+ cause i dont have the rgt mood to play on court-.-
durg halfway through the game i realized i hit someone with my elbow two times at a go.when i turn ard.its anzie and she cried(cause i rly hit her v hard-.-).oh man i still feel guilty for hitting u so hard leh.sry uh
and ya durg 3rd quarter i flew out of the court just to save a ball and pass to simin.i landed damn hard untill now my right tight still hurts like hell-.- but then the ball never go in..what a pity-.-
but overall it was still a nice game with AI.haha always play match with them luh
actually tmr will be having friendly game with cedar girls.but heng the cedar girls coach never pick up e call :D
if not i think i'll ask coach to bench me again.
this 2-3 weeks will be havin remedial lessons-.- trgs and EBC selection trg.
i manage to clear first rd of selection.
now 2nd rd have to climb bukit timah hill and mt faber.kinda excited but now still sian sian
i wanna go EBC! but then theres so many things i must plan before i could go.
MT EVEREST HERE I COME!!!
-.-
我时时刻刻都会想到.
就算我闭上双眼还是会出现在脑海里.
我尝试尽量不去想那么多,但是最后还是失败了.
面带笑容的压抑住我的心情,但最后还是会打回原型.
不希望你离开,因为我已经彻彻底底败在你手里.
明晚就让我真正的快乐一次好吗?
eoy holiday begains.i should be happy now and going out to play blah blah blah.
but then it seems like i dont have mood for anyth at all.
ytd had friendly game with ahmad imbrahim.we won by luck i guess?
i even requested coach to bench me for 1 quarter+ cause i dont have the rgt mood to play on court-.-
durg halfway through the game i realized i hit someone with my elbow two times at a go.when i turn ard.its anzie and she cried(cause i rly hit her v hard-.-).oh man i still feel guilty for hitting u so hard leh.sry uh
and ya durg 3rd quarter i flew out of the court just to save a ball and pass to simin.i landed damn hard untill now my right tight still hurts like hell-.- but then the ball never go in..what a pity-.-
but overall it was still a nice game with AI.haha always play match with them luh
actually tmr will be having friendly game with cedar girls.but heng the cedar girls coach never pick up e call :D
if not i think i'll ask coach to bench me again.
this 2-3 weeks will be havin remedial lessons-.- trgs and EBC selection trg.
i manage to clear first rd of selection.
now 2nd rd have to climb bukit timah hill and mt faber.kinda excited but now still sian sian
i wanna go EBC! but then theres so many things i must plan before i could go.
MT EVEREST HERE I COME!!!
-.-
我时时刻刻都会想到.
就算我闭上双眼还是会出现在脑海里.
我尝试尽量不去想那么多,但是最后还是失败了.
面带笑容的压抑住我的心情,但最后还是会打回原型.
不希望你离开,因为我已经彻彻底底败在你手里.
明晚就让我真正的快乐一次好吗?
i know that i care about you ... at 22:07
21 October 2008
i skipped sch today.just no mood for anyth and everyth.i dont feel like doing anyth and going whr.
i feel like stayin at home.alot people say home is the best place when ppl feel down.perhaps it is.
i dont think i've the mood to play tmrs game.i even feel like skipping sch tmr.
i feel numb totally numb rgt now.
我没有放弃,那你也不要放弃好吗?
我不想跌下去,因为现在我承受不起这一切.
开始我以为是小小的游戏,可是最后我发现它已经影响我的生活
不要告诉我你以前所对我说的话是假的.
也不要告诉我抛弃这些你能好过.
因为我不赞成也不相信.
每件事都有解决的方法
而我相信这方法是错的，不只是我，我知道其他人也不能认同。
我只知道这是完美的开始,不要突然把它残忍的结束好吗?
pls stay will you?
i feel like stayin at home.alot people say home is the best place when ppl feel down.perhaps it is.
i dont think i've the mood to play tmrs game.i even feel like skipping sch tmr.
i feel numb totally numb rgt now.
我没有放弃,那你也不要放弃好吗?
我不想跌下去,因为现在我承受不起这一切.
开始我以为是小小的游戏,可是最后我发现它已经影响我的生活
不要告诉我你以前所对我说的话是假的.
也不要告诉我抛弃这些你能好过.
因为我不赞成也不相信.
每件事都有解决的方法
而我相信这方法是错的，不只是我，我知道其他人也不能认同。
我只知道这是完美的开始,不要突然把它残忍的结束好吗?
pls stay will you?
i know that i care about you ... at 16:59
20 October 2008
oh well..i got back my beautiful results. and i think im damn lucky that i did not retain.hah
anw morning reached class we were discussing abt who will retain blah blah blah. aft tt me bernard willy zhiyen and forgot who started to crap alot of stupid things.damn crap la.haha
played a prank on jianing and told her vivien and bernard retain. her reaction was funny daoooo we keep laughin la.
but aft tt i become the nice one to tell her e truth! :D
thank me man leong jia ning! ahaha
and then as usual the v violent leong jianing started to beat vivien and bernard up(expected one luh-.-)
then lesson ends and trg blah blah blah.
wednesday friendly at sbc-.-
holiday playin ccab cup.
one word D-I-E
if only.........aiya but impossible la-.-
adios
anw morning reached class we were discussing abt who will retain blah blah blah. aft tt me bernard willy zhiyen and forgot who started to crap alot of stupid things.damn crap la.haha
played a prank on jianing and told her vivien and bernard retain. her reaction was funny daoooo we keep laughin la.
but aft tt i become the nice one to tell her e truth! :D
thank me man leong jia ning! ahaha
and then as usual the v violent leong jianing started to beat vivien and bernard up(expected one luh-.-)
then lesson ends and trg blah blah blah.
wednesday friendly at sbc-.-
holiday playin ccab cup.
one word D-I-E
if only.........aiya but impossible la-.-
adios
i know that i care about you ... at 19:45
13 October 2008
Fear?
goodgame-.-kena bomb by coach tday.cause i din know theres trg tday
tmr got trg..like finally.but need to head down sbc.
arghh..
i got two more days of break.and then i will need to prepare alot of things.
friday will/will not be my dooms day.hahaha.hopefully it wont.
theres not much nice movie to watch nowadays.so boringgggg..
i want to occupied my mind and time with lotsa lotsa things(but not trouble).
anw ytd i went out agn.watch movie with santa.
im nice that i din do anything which u dare me k.but soon i'll do it..hahaha
i like to go out with u.cause it brightens my day(:
hmmmmm................
theres sth deep in my heart now
and me myself dont even know whats that.
that thing is just makin me feel damn uneasy.
its not that i dont wanna tell you,but just that i really dont know whats it is.
maybe its fear?
idk.
i guess i shall stop here.
goodgame-.-kena bomb by coach tday.cause i din know theres trg tday
tmr got trg..like finally.but need to head down sbc.
arghh..
i got two more days of break.and then i will need to prepare alot of things.
friday will/will not be my dooms day.hahaha.hopefully it wont.
theres not much nice movie to watch nowadays.so boringgggg..
i want to occupied my mind and time with lotsa lotsa things(but not trouble).
anw ytd i went out agn.watch movie with santa.
im nice that i din do anything which u dare me k.but soon i'll do it..hahaha
i like to go out with u.cause it brightens my day(:
hmmmmm................
theres sth deep in my heart now
and me myself dont even know whats that.
that thing is just makin me feel damn uneasy.
its not that i dont wanna tell you,but just that i really dont know whats it is.
maybe its fear?
idk.
i guess i shall stop here.
i know that i care about you ... at 11:12
11 October 2008
my hand is going to break soon..help my dear dog to bath and he was running around the garden..made me chase aft him till so tired..imagine i spent 1hr 40mins like that to bath him and clean the mess my dear joe[dog] has made.
anw all my papers end alr! but im not feeling happy at all..
mayb because im worried about my results and other stuffs ba.
just plssssssssssss dont let me retain again.
i have been thinkin and thinkin durg this few days.
what will happen aft i know i retain,what will happen if my parents know i retain.
one thing v sure is that 我的下场一定不会很好看. haha
well actually no point thinking so much.stay positive man.haha
monday tues no sch..i dont like the feeling to rot at home.so boring..
i want to occupied my time with lotsa lotsa things..but i dont know where to begain with.
ive reserved 70% of my time for you..but it seems like ure even more busy than me.
i guess i shall stop here .ciaos
anw all my papers end alr! but im not feeling happy at all..
mayb because im worried about my results and other stuffs ba.
just plssssssssssss dont let me retain again.
i have been thinkin and thinkin durg this few days.
what will happen aft i know i retain,what will happen if my parents know i retain.
one thing v sure is that 我的下场一定不会很好看. haha
well actually no point thinking so much.stay positive man.haha
monday tues no sch..i dont like the feeling to rot at home.so boring..
i want to occupied my time with lotsa lotsa things..but i dont know where to begain with.
ive reserved 70% of my time for you..but it seems like ure even more busy than me.
i guess i shall stop here .ciaos
i know that i care about you ... at 20:53
08 October 2008
tmr last paper!!!!!!!
okay im kinda over right now-.-
i need slp.alot of slp.i oly slpt for 4 hrs+ for this 3 days.pro right?haha
well monday is limyijun b'day.went cathay makan makan and celebrate.
i was tryin to ask them to sing but then its super difficult u know-.-
then got this staff in the restuarant sang the b'day song.ahaha
was fun and the crazy birthday girl went to pay the bill.
so i was trying to stuff the money back to her,she accidently pour the lemon tea on me.
-.-"
i swear i will never ever stuff money to yijun anymore.hah
wenta watch movie aft tt then homesweet home.
then today went out with my santa.watch mamamia and then back home
im happy that u try to spent time with me but then dont feel so guilty alright
i wont be angry with ur busy schedule de.
heheheh.becareful next time when u meet me.cause i'll do what u dare me uh
lol
tmr poa paper 2.chiong ahhhhhhh!
okay im kinda over right now-.-
i need slp.alot of slp.i oly slpt for 4 hrs+ for this 3 days.pro right?haha
well monday is limyijun b'day.went cathay makan makan and celebrate.
i was tryin to ask them to sing but then its super difficult u know-.-
then got this staff in the restuarant sang the b'day song.ahaha
was fun and the crazy birthday girl went to pay the bill.
so i was trying to stuff the money back to her,she accidently pour the lemon tea on me.
-.-"
i swear i will never ever stuff money to yijun anymore.hah
wenta watch movie aft tt then homesweet home.
then today went out with my santa.watch mamamia and then back home
im happy that u try to spent time with me but then dont feel so guilty alright
i wont be angry with ur busy schedule de.
heheheh.becareful next time when u meet me.cause i'll do what u dare me uh
lol
tmr poa paper 2.chiong ahhhhhhh!
i know that i care about you ... at 21:28
06 October 2008
o6o8o8(:
im blessed to know you
im blessed to have you around
and most impt im blessed to love you
hohoho..tmr poa and chem paper goodluck to myself man.
will be stayin in spore till wed i guess? due to some stupid stuffs happen.
shall not elaborate abt it :D
hmmm now is 12.22am
means its 6oct liao
so its MISS LIM YIJUN'S B'DAE
eh yijun act need to pay me $ to advertise ur birthday on my blog k?
but because im toooooo NICE i shall nt charge u any $$.
hahaha
girl happy birthday uh.swtttt 16 liao..can watch NC16 movie alr.
hohoho.we shall go watch nc16 movie and kick away those 15 yrs old one k
-.-"
aiya 总而言之 enjoy ya big day and may all ur wish come true~!(:
gluck for ya Os too
im blessed to know you
im blessed to have you around
and most impt im blessed to love you
hohoho..tmr poa and chem paper goodluck to myself man.
will be stayin in spore till wed i guess? due to some stupid stuffs happen.
shall not elaborate abt it :D
hmmm now is 12.22am
means its 6oct liao
so its MISS LIM YIJUN'S B'DAE
eh yijun act need to pay me $ to advertise ur birthday on my blog k?
but because im toooooo NICE i shall nt charge u any $$.
hahaha
girl happy birthday uh.swtttt 16 liao..can watch NC16 movie alr.
hohoho.we shall go watch nc16 movie and kick away those 15 yrs old one k
-.-"
aiya 总而言之 enjoy ya big day and may all ur wish come true~!(:
gluck for ya Os too
i know that i care about you ... at 00:20
03 October 2008
3 down 3 more t go.
had my combine humans paper tday. hopefully i will pass the paper-.-
well tues wed and thurs has been gg to spore to mug with vanessa n yijun
from 10am onwards to 5pm/8pm.study dao siao.hah but at least i manage to store sth in my tiny brain.
we have been talking crap and doing stupid stuffs while we're studying and then laugh laugh laugh.haha.
hmmm if im not wrong,monday will be havin poa and chem paper.
im nt sure what i dono abt poa&chem so i dono whr to start studying from.
tues will be havin math ...
wed will be havin math+bio...
thurs havin poa...
tell me how am i gg to survive the 4 hr ++ math paper
im so dead man
this weekend will be my last run!
guess i gtg now.gluck everyone(:
had my combine humans paper tday. hopefully i will pass the paper-.-
well tues wed and thurs has been gg to spore to mug with vanessa n yijun
from 10am onwards to 5pm/8pm.study dao siao.hah but at least i manage to store sth in my tiny brain.
we have been talking crap and doing stupid stuffs while we're studying and then laugh laugh laugh.haha.
hmmm if im not wrong,monday will be havin poa and chem paper.
im nt sure what i dono abt poa&chem so i dono whr to start studying from.
tues will be havin math ...
wed will be havin math+bio...
thurs havin poa...
tell me how am i gg to survive the 4 hr ++ math paper
im so dead man
this weekend will be my last run!
guess i gtg now.gluck everyone(:
i know that i care about you ... at 19:02
