19 June 2010
i did not expect that the next time i blog will be under this condition.
life been quite screwed up recently. school work has always been neutral.
basketball life. schedule tight till i don even have much time to relax, but i know the results will be worthwhile after all the trainings.
so far my team managed to win all the games. last game for 1st rd is today. gotta put in my best.
emotional wise is totally ruined. my last and only trust i've was being destroyed by your hands in split seconds. i don even know if i am able to forgive you and forget about this. it hurts like crap. every moment when i opened my eyes after sleep, i'll start tearing/crying till i went back sleep. i wonder how long this pain gonna last cause i dont want it to stay in my heart anymore. this feeling is killing me and draining all my energy out from my body. i feel numb right now but my tears still kept flowing when im typing now. amazing isnt it?
i rather my heart dies forever. everytime u step close to me i'll begain to have this fear of you bringing me up and drop me. and everytime i will be softhearted too. i hate this me seriously. fml
life been quite screwed up recently. school work has always been neutral.
basketball life. schedule tight till i don even have much time to relax, but i know the results will be worthwhile after all the trainings.
so far my team managed to win all the games. last game for 1st rd is today. gotta put in my best.
emotional wise is totally ruined. my last and only trust i've was being destroyed by your hands in split seconds. i don even know if i am able to forgive you and forget about this. it hurts like crap. every moment when i opened my eyes after sleep, i'll start tearing/crying till i went back sleep. i wonder how long this pain gonna last cause i dont want it to stay in my heart anymore. this feeling is killing me and draining all my energy out from my body. i feel numb right now but my tears still kept flowing when im typing now. amazing isnt it?
i rather my heart dies forever. everytime u step close to me i'll begain to have this fear of you bringing me up and drop me. and everytime i will be softhearted too. i hate this me seriously. fml
i know that i care about you ... at 09:09
