care about every single thing thats link to you

2010-09-11T00:27:00.002+08:00

is it so freaking fun to get people around you worried?
or is it that people around you are just simply strangers and u don have to care about?
or tell me that im the only stranger in your world which caused u to feel that theres no need for me to be informed personally by you?

i seriously don know why ppl is making me worried when they know they're seriously freaking important in my life.

come on la what you all want from me? kill me is it? just do it la.

2010-09-09T13:39:00.003+08:00

last paper of ut to go! science sucks like crap and i've made up my mind that physics is not suitable for me-.-

ahwells been through quite a lot recently.mostly bad than good but im glad that at least theres someone there waiting at e other end trying to support me.
thoughts running wild last night and it kept me thinking and thinking.
maybe i should stick with my new decision....

2010-09-01T18:23:00.003+08:00

UT3 is on coming monday and its already wednesday nowwwwww omg:(
i got my freaking knee injured durg tchers day game so freaking irritating im like walking like a crippled now. feels like taking a hammer and knock my knee!

oh yea i feel like im back to my healthy eating lifestyle because i have to eat soft food again!! my teeth hurts like crap but im happy because of some reason.. i took 1 hour++ to finish a plate of rice-.- kns.
training tmrrrr but i cant attend cause of my lousy knee :(

im having surgery in 2 weeks time and it clashes on my msia bball trip with rp! come on tell me what should i do now? :(

lastly, im glad to find you(:

2010-08-01T13:23:00.002+08:00

back to blogggg!
youth cup just ended, and womens open begains. time flies, tonight gonna be the last game in opens.
overall had lots of fun with this team(:
fought hard together as a team and win/ lose together as one <3

anw its time for me to go gymmmmmm tmr! omg super duper long nv go alr :(

oh yea. i'll like to thanks everyone for the bday wish/card/song/text/surprise
super duper happy on that day as well as before and after.
kam/pearl/gum was the first to celebrate for me follow by candy,my class and team chr :D
and yesterday with rp team(:
then go on to the buddies with zb and nicole!(:
and lastly last night with teammiessss at sbc!
was really an unexpected one this year despite all the busy schedule on going and everyone still able to make it.
seriously was damn surprised and touched about it!

holiday is coming soon in weeks time im awaiting for its arrival and im gna start work alr!(aint gna be jobless for 10 days~!)
i wanna work IT show go any nice lobang ppl? :D

hmmm i seriously don know what to type anymore
last but not least,
its the very first time ur words got me thinking........

2010-07-12T11:05:00.004+08:00

alright im back again. this blog is dying( or i should say alr dead)
been so busy with my time recently im running out of breath to live.

one game after another, one training after another.
one lesson after another, one test after another.
oh man when is this gonna stop?
i don seem to care that much to things as i seemed to be, perhaps im just tired to give a damn about it anymore.

youth cup just end, im glad to have sucha awesome team like this. despite how tiring the training or match may be, no one gives up on themselves as well as each other. was quite a pity for the finals. but im sure we're gonna do better next year. jiayou qunyan(:
coming sun first match for opens. wow. after tt still got polite and ivp.
comeon im just having a baller freak life right nowwwwwwww.

alright i think i shall wake up and go back on track. i've been dreaming throughout this whole year and i think i should start to be clear minded and awake now( hope its not too late) . i don wanna fall again, i don wanna be deluded anymore. i just wanna make my life happy and doing things thats impt and what i want.

gtg. update in a month time(i guess?)

2010-06-19T09:09:00.003+08:00

i did not expect that the next time i blog will be under this condition.
life been quite screwed up recently. school work has always been neutral.
basketball life. schedule tight till i don even have much time to relax, but i know the results will be worthwhile after all the trainings.
so far my team managed to win all the games. last game for 1st rd is today. gotta put in my best.

emotional wise is totally ruined. my last and only trust i've was being destroyed by your hands in split seconds. i don even know if i am able to forgive you and forget about this. it hurts like crap. every moment when i opened my eyes after sleep, i'll start tearing/crying till i went back sleep. i wonder how long this pain gonna last cause i dont want it to stay in my heart anymore. this feeling is killing me and draining all my energy out from my body. i feel numb right now but my tears still kept flowing when im typing now. amazing isnt it?
i rather my heart dies forever. everytime u step close to me i'll begain to have this fear of you bringing me up and drop me. and everytime i will be softhearted too. i hate this me seriously. fml

2010-04-26T19:34:00.006+08:00

this time round i rly need someone to talk to :/

back to blog cause some naggy one ask me to.

oppsssss :X aye don worry i still DOTE you. hahahah

ahwells. school starts, my 5 months holiday gone. sch orientation was super fun but i missed e last one. my classmates all damn funny. everyday poser annoying orange(watch youtube if u don uds what im talking abt)

challenge each other during presentation and thats our way of showing love to each other. hahah.

they're steady till they create a grp on facebook O.o

(my class!not all inside but we everyday spent out 2hr++ break chiong presentation-.-)

anws back to e one i concern most which is my grades. so far so good 2 A 2 B no lesser than B :D hope i'll maintain this kinda grade for e whole sem! and OMG UTS COMING IN 2 WEEKS TIME.

D-I-E

oh and today my day is so freaking screweddd. sian ttm.

last week celebrated phoenix bday and ytd went to zf's chalet. feeling so lethargic and i cant seem to get enough sleep every single day!

(on phoenix b'day)

zhengfang's one will upload soonnnnnnn.

i realised my daily schedule is so fully packed omg i scared i don have time for special people during special occasion. i am so sorryyy :/

okay guess i gotta go now haven do my RJ quiz and stuff arghh

bye

2010-04-07T01:48:00.007+08:00

the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside

i do not want to be afraid.

well this week so far so good except for the feeling unwell part :/ been havin headache and feeling giddy for quite some day. lucky its all over now if not i've no choice to take mc alr.

except for working part, i spent some time on my cute nephews and managed to bring em out. they rly made my day and make me smile thruout e whole day because of their cuteness.

oh i also watched boys match. its quite a pity but aye nvm theres alws a second chance(:

the remaining days reserve for boxin daddy. had dinner with her and chat few days ago. then today makan sushi with her(super guilty cos gna gain weight liao-.-), next outing will be dessert@ bugis. omg gna faint mannnn.haha but ahwells at least theres sth for me to chill and not to think that much. at least thats the oly good sign in my life right now.

anyways felt like burning singtel down cause i wanted to sign contract but im 4 months younger to sign. kns cnt calculate by year one meh-.-. maybe next week im able to sign so i'll be changing no. soon (: get from me if i din give you!

tmr gna have HEARTZ lesson @ ikea despite having offs. hoho im gna give my heart to em :D okay craps till here gna brush my teeth and slp. hopefully i wont use my facial wash to brush agn if not i rly can go die.

aaaaaaaadiossssss~

p.s

- boxin daddy(idk what to say except for saying thanks for every single thing.btw i don want boxin mummy.hahaha)

-xuewei(to you i know thanks is not what you want but what i can only say is still thanks for every single thing.i just wna see you happy yo! :D )

i don wna be heartless

so don do things which will make me say u're a piece of crap to me.

2010-03-28T16:05:00.007+08:00

have i ever told you that waking up is a nightmare?

i wanted to blog ytd but i was too lazy to do so. decided to blog today cause i really miss us.

it was 27march ytd. one year ago, we set off to nepal as a team of 10 girls, having a common goal which is to reach the EBC for the 18 days trip.

i miss the trip,which is filled with excitement,joy,laughter,pain,sadness and even tears.

not forgetting, i also miss another team which im sure that i wont forget about them in this whole lifetime.

team CHR

(super blur cause i took from notice board)

wanted to upload more pic of e team but im sure everyone will kill me cause got super glam& our LONG HAIR photos. hahah

alright back to blog. i want to buy new phone next monthhhhhh.cant wait cant wait.

talking abt phone. i did real stupid stuffs in mac last night with hy&jx. accidently threw my phone in mac then it flew quite high and landed aft 2 secs into 3 separate pieces(battery,cover&phone) everyone looking at us and its real stupid.played a game and i did 3 forfeits(super suay),called some guys and said stupid things-.-

alright i gotta back to reality, byeeeee

this is my last step

i cant hold on any longer

2010-03-22T22:31:00.007+08:00

lost all the trust towards everyone.

u'll never know how terrible it feels.

alright ending of last week and today was awesomeeee. sunday went blading and i fell like ard 10times or i think more than that? hahah well at least i learn how to make myself move forward LOL. shop ard jp with vivienliew and wangweizhen. spendin quite sometime in ntuc buying stupid stuffs.

today went universal studio. high like mad i can say. its all worth it man. missed one ride due to technical probs kns waited for 2 hrs for that mans. i swear im gg to go there agn soon when im free! pics will be in fb soon by this week.(:

i need my voice back aft one whole day of screaming today :/

ohhhh no forgetting to say that my boss is so sweet to buy us sweet strawberries from oversea. one person had a bowl each!

tadaaaaa

dang okay back to reality,work tmrrrr. aint gna have off days for weeks ohmanohman.

workaholic life goes agn.

don ruin it when a chance is given to be nice.

2010-03-08T23:02:00.005+08:00

you used to tell me watch out for heartbreakers. all they do is take your love and leave.

i think im dyinggggggg soon. all the things thats stuff deep inside me. whatever crap shit you could think of and i could do.

to the extend of i cant control my emotions and words. saying whatever things i just thought of. aint gonna think before i say. cause im just so freaking drain up and tired.i think i can just cry anytime anywhere whenever you want me to.

on the side note i finally got to tan myself and i love my skin colour now except e sunburnt sensation. joke of the day is when willy trying to imitate titanic's rose & jack. instead of calling rose, he called mary which cause everyone of us to go ???? and sudd burst out laughing aft realising his mistake. peektureees will be upload in fb and maybe one or 2 in e next post.

had dinner with hy&jx @ xinwang and headed back home.

aft e dinner my mood swing back to the horrible and terrible one. till now its still the same.

gotta work tmr,shall not stay here any further. get back in few days time. bye

tmr gna be a moody day.

2010-03-04T00:29:00.010+08:00

with my cute lill nephewww(joven)(:

hes superrrrr notorious but cute causeeeeeee he is just cute.

okay whatever idk what im talking abt-.-

there one joke abt him durg reunion dinner

his mom aka my sis: who spill the green tea on the floor?!

-a moment of silence then sudd he came out of the room and say....-

joven: not i spill one.

everyone: okay confirm you spill liao.

joven:(shows a guilty and sad face)

super cute right.hahah

anw i saw elvin ng 2 days ago! :O

omg he seriously super yandao in person and i serve him, damn cool! :D

now waiting for rui en's turn to come ikea alr. hahaha

well these few days had lotsa emotions running thru me(thks to the 1hr bus ride everyday-.-)

i realise i got alot of things i nv said to you. and i shall find one time to say every single thing out as long as u contact me. haha

pay day is coming real soon and im loving my working environment more and more.(:

had a super thrilling and stupid break tday with el and sis. cause we were talking abt some sales in levis and we RAN out of ikea to levis shop aft e conversation.

ohhh and im having 4 days off real soon :D

monday im gna go tannnntannnnn omg like finally i miss the sun i miss my tan skin i miss the heat hopefully the tanning wont be a failure.

alright i guess i gotta go. work again tmr. ciaoooo

somehow i got this feeling that its gna be never ending

and i dont even know which is the real you to trust.

2010-02-23T22:24:00.004+08:00

i wanna upload photo but im having prob uploadinggg. kns :/

okay seriously i guess i lost track of the time.
i think im still living in 2009.hahah

i dont seem to have the newyear mood for this year. been working on chu1&2. sad life right?
i think im a workaholic now like seriously. one week work 5 days. everyday work till 10pm/11pm(thanks to the schedule planner-.-)
but i still like the working environment.ahaha

durg this cny season my mom and sis went back indo without me :(
so i spent my cny doing
-work
-reunion dinner at xwei's place
-reunion dinner at bros place
-as usual gambleeeeee
-kammy house gathering
-lou hei at ikea,bro's place and aunts place
-steamboat at aunts place
-went coach& mdm wans house bai nian
-talk to a counselor aka bro's girlf( i did nothing wrong!-.-)
the remaining days all for work lor.

seriously my working days is like wake up, go work, go back, slp,wake up and goes on and on....
i think it'll still continue for a month or maybe longer :O

oh not forgetting that i cut my hand @ work ytd. jitao not alot of blood-.- and they gave me off day today to rest like woahhhh. haha
(p.s i cut my hand in e toilet while trying to pull tissue paper-.- stupid i know)

i feel that i still need to shop for some stuffs. ohman ohman. not enough time to do that and im still waiting for shopping session with el on next month! :D
not forgetting next week mich xl and alien is coming to my place.(dont feel like cleanning up my room hah)

okay i guess i gotta go alr,tmr still need to wake up early see dental sian
byeeeee

2010-02-07T22:35:00.006+08:00

if you never feel like letting go
then hold on to it

my normal left finger with my swollen right finger :(

alright i had a rather rough but nice week.
rough is cause i had 9hrs of work daily all from 1pm to 10pm aft deducting my 1hr break.
nice is cause i spent 45 mins of my break shopping at qway and managed to buy some new year clothes(: and also not forgetting xwei for sending me back everyday aft i end my work :D

ytd i had a happy morning cause i managed to tan myself for some time. hahah
but i had quite a screwed up aftnoon cause my lock @ my workplace died on me. i cant lock e freaking thing and lotsa thing happened caused me to report late for work.kena lecture i was damn moody aft tt-.- siannnnnn

anw i had my shopping session tday with ahmao and yunhui. i went back to look for e shoe i fell in love with but i cant find it. the staff told me its out of stock and i was sian like crap. but in e end i managed to find and bought a pair of decent shoe but not as nice as e shoe i fell in love with.aiya aft all that shoe i bought also not bad la. hahaha.

alright gotta go. work tmr again i hate coming fri's schedule cause i've to work from 9am to 9pm. saddist.
sigh byeeeeeeee

losing the last sense of you was a good or bad thing?

2010-02-02T22:23:00.003+08:00

after surviving though a week of misery and sadness due to the stupid moe.
finally today i received a news which allow me to have A GLIMPSE of hope.(yea only abit)
thou its not a 100% but its better than nothing.hahah
but yea have to remind myself not to be too happy cause its not a 100%(:

okay i received my week 1 schedule for feb and working hours is like crap-.-
all work till 10pm. sian ttm. ytd and today had off so yea long hours gna start tmr! :(
but on a brighter note. pay day is coming in dayssssss! :D
but still pay day made me sad cause i have to give part of it for my dental.
crap shit. i feel so contradicting. hahah

alright. last week iiiiiiiii
-watched girls game
-slack with wenting siman
-dinner with sm and sheena
-work work and work
-dental appointmentS
-went kk hospital-.-

girls left with e last game i just hope they play it with joy and not stress. all the best!(:
okay i need to go shopping badlyyyy. i haven finish buying all my stuff.oh well thanks to ikea:(
im still deeply in love with the love @ first sight shoe. hahah

sometimes its just so hard to communicate with someone despite all the tryings and efforts end up leaving regrets and sadness in life.

ohh lastly. daddy i appreciate your kindness and listening ear! thanks a million(:

2010-01-25T12:56:00.003+08:00

a new life, a new begainning

newborn baby cousin!(:
sis's hand comparing to baby's face!
its a he and hes still nameless.
i just hope this baby wont be having same character from his devil bro if not this world rly gna end soon man. hahah

okay this week is....
watched ivp finals with boxim daddy,
watch juniors game,
balled abit,
stayover at sheryl's place,
watch c girls friendly,
home sweet home.
due to my laziness i shall not elaborate much on those activities above(:

oh my fav pri sch cheena tcher retired alr :(
she was on tv on sat night.talking about her past teaching stuffs and students.
i alws remembered she asked us to memories the 十字真经. and expect us to be able to read out the whole 30 sets of 成语in sequence when we go back to visit her aft we graduate. haha
her fav phrase has always been 求学如逆水行舟，不进则退 and 力求上镜，力争上游
oh my i miss those times....

anw i finally had my haircut ytd and dyed my hair, mom say machium dye back same colour like that i also got abit same feeling as her. hmmmm maybe next time go dye agn. hahah.
oh i went shopping too. shop halfway nia. saw a pair of shoe i like but dont have the size :/ damn sad ttm.

gna start work on fri/sat soon. ltr gg checkup, wed also checkup agn.
im sure this period of time my life will be filled with work and checkups. not forgetting im gna work on cny too. gna be a no life human soonnnnnnnnn

yesterday is a miracle day,but you end it without any miracle happening.
竟然以为你会不一样
但凭什么你要不一样

也许我太过天真，以为奇迹会发身

2010-01-20T11:38:00.004+08:00

alright more than a weeks has gone.lotsa things happened.

results days, i din know i should be happy or sad. but now recall back. i think i should be sad. hahaha. but aft gettin back e results, went to have dinner with weeahlian,ms toh, siman and co(:
currently now im like travelin back and forth towards ngeeann and nyp for my course hunt and i guess tp will be next soon. seriously hope i could get e course i want and not those chapalang course tt jae gg to give me-.-
but theres a good news. im gg down for nyp interview :D

okay another things happened is i met a maniac ahpek at my work place with made me feel like killing him. For god sake he is damn iriitating and annoying so i decided to quit my job next month.
thanks to him. i became damn moody at my workplace and super no mood to work there.

okay lastly. i had surgery ytd for my teeth. some gold chain thing surgery. idk what thing also. i tot the doctor was kding with me abt the gold chain surgery name. but who know when i was awake from my surgery, i saw a small gold coloured chain danglin at my gum and theres idk how many stiches at my gum. walao damn freaking pain at first.
then i makan machium no need to bite one. i swallow food-.-
my gum is still bleeding nowwwwwww. bloody hell :/
anw i hate myself for calling out e wrong name when i was semi conscious and i rly tot its you :/

okay nth else i guess. actually i wna post e pic of e 2 small teeth which has been stayin in my gums for idk how many years and was being extracted on ytd's surgery. it looked like small dino tooth, sharpsharp one. haha but for e sake of the readers. i shall be nice and not to post sucha disgusting pic :D

You're the best thing I Never Knew I Needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

2010-01-06T22:41:00.003+08:00

people come and go but just not them♥

7yrs of friendship and still countin on(:

alright start with last week. had quite a fun but tired newyr countdown outside my house with xuewei and co. slept damn early cause that day i was working.
next day mao zhengfang and yunhui came over to my place.
shopping haircut movie session dinner and stayovers.
rushed to spore aft tt but we're gg to have an outing agn soon! (:

headed to antene's bday celebration! never fails to meet them every year when antene back from aus(:
played lotsa stupid games and stuffs. was super engrossed with the channel 8 9pm show till everyone sat there quietly for like 2hrs just to watch that show. haha thanks to yujieh's mio tv-.-
reached home quite late and yea rest early.

today is my 5th day of work. seriously my workin environment is damn cool ttm. ask me personally and i'll tell u why. HAH
oh yea got fun colleague.nice ppl. cute/pretty/funny customers everyday!
everything there was quite nice except one of my supervisor and the stupid lock on my locker!!!
my sup was damn sucky ttm attitude sucks and stuffs. heng my sis was there to help me :D
oh yea abt e lock. everytime i can spent MINIMUM 5mins just to open that stupid lock of mine. i got no fate with e lock mans. alws cant open one :/

ok thats all for my crap life. tmr off day! need more rest need more breaks need moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....okay idk what else
ohhhhhhhh!!!!! results out on monday! freaking deep shit. omgomgomg :(

k ciao(:

2009-12-27T23:36:00.003+08:00

mom's 50th bday! (:
thats what i normally do on xmas(:
oh yea had pool session ytd with ah suay and guys.
was kind of fun and stupid cause i ruin my 4 perfect hit of the black ball to win e game.
reasons? they were tryin to distract me and make me laugh abt e facial expression im having. -.-
but after all that day was filled with laughter and joy(:
one down 4 more outings to go! and 4 more days to 2010!
i suspect 2009 have wings man. this yr end amazing fast. or is it 365 days decrease to a 100 days? hmmmm

this yr the only super productive thing i've did is the everest base camp. other than that.hmmm Os counted? ahah. hope next yr will be btr. results out soonnnnnn! :/

sometimes do u feel that childhood memories just seem like a dream? u experienced it before but recalling back just make it feels so surreal.

people always have alot to say even thou things ended.
and chances were not given for them to say throughout their whole lifetime.
some says chances is always there in your hands. you agree?

2009-12-22T20:54:00.004+08:00

xmas on this week! as well as moms bday(:
gna have a fun week i guess. oh and im gna start work next week(what a wrong timing) :/
boxin daddy and co coming on next week also. everyth is so pack in my life.
not forgetting outing with EBCG and siman+co!
din go sch trg for 2 weeks. well i guess i'll go when sch term starts!
and im gna be a braces kid soon. surgery next month! oh my so many things so lill time.

ohh. i've been having weird dreams and dreamt of ppl i aint supposed to dream.
ppl nowadays like to call me when im aslp esp coach! scare me like hell-.-
i even dreamt of coach calling me in my dream when im slping. what a joke mans.

tskk if only dreams wont make me suffer.
i don wna dream of u :/

2009-12-13T13:19:00.004+08:00

this week had rather been a pleasant one except for the ending part.
i watched case 39 on wed and i don think its scary at all-.-
ytd was a damn screwed up day and im having headache and fever now :/
just woke up not long and im going to slp agn soon thanks to the med.

im so speechless now and i don feel like doing anyth at all
the plan was screwed ttm.
just praying and hoping for a good day today.
oh not forgetting dinner tgt with boxin daddy on comin thurs! (:

im waiting for a text to stop this misery :/

2009-12-04T14:46:00.002+08:00

back from trip! :D
bought lotsa clothes and e theme is white! so means almost everyth i buy is white in colour.haha
well trip was kind of funnnnnnnnn except for e last few days it was totally screwed like wtf.
just dont understand when is it gna come to an end. sian

almost everyth is in a mess now mannnnnn. and oh yea i felt like working suddd! anyone got gd lobangssssssss?
:D
oh i saw my potato cousins and e younger one's hair is like almost 3 time longer than mine? ji steady yi xia. my friend tot hes a girl and say:" xiao mei mei excuse me jie guo yi xia" damn hillarious.hahah
alright i dont feel like typing much now so yea let pics do e talking! (:

e first time i saw her(my cousin's daughter) she tot im some kind of baddie and gave me a punch on e face-.-

♥ this pic cause of e 2 cute puppies! :D

7months old cousin. we call her meat ball! hahah

uncle's pineapple plantation

introducing my girly potato cousin!(and e ang moh pineapple of cause) :D

alright ends here lazy to upload more(:

tell me when it gna stop.
tell me when im supposed to take the first step.
cause im seriously stuck inbetween right now :/

2009-11-24T11:05:00.004+08:00

last week is filled with self trgs, friendly games ,killiney trgs and weddings
i was having muscle ache aft self trg on wed. then aft friday's friendly game it became worst like wth-.-
talking abt e friendly. i almost died in e first game being a center. hahah i prayed and prayed hoping that some particular player wont be sub in if not im afraid that sth might happen. in e end mdm wan save my day! damn funny can everyone was like laughing.
oh i injured my pinky while i was sub out from e game kinda stupid i know.

sats trg was fun to me i guess. its been sometime since everyone gathered tgt to train. startin me and zb tot we will be late so we cab to sch who knows jiaolian is late-.-
trg wasnt that tiring but im sure theres more up next durg e rest of da trainings.
makan tgt and stuffs walking ard cwp and headed home.
went out with kam and yj tt evening for dinner. do e usual things and slack till late.
we have lesser things to talk now cause i think we know almost everyth alr. LOL

sun went weiyan's wedding. headed down to harbourfront with maomao to meet zf nd huiqin.
before that i saw someone and i was damn shock :o
maomao was being super funny that time.haha
e wedding ceremony were nice. our table like quite funny cause of da ppl who served us.
its quite happy to see that weiyan found her mr right too.
times fliessssssss man.

talking about time. last night talk to houyee abt e experience we've been thru as a team. seriously damn lots mans. china trip, punggol cup, nanchiau match, anglican, geylang serai, msia trip and lots more which i cant rmb now.
oh china trip was like classified in few things such as transparent toilets made me and sheryl decided not to bathe that day and stay dirty.hahah. and also houyee's toilet incident! :x
not forgetting everyone tryin to disturb me by putting someone in e room with me tgt-.-
i seriously miss those times tgt with them. if only we can rewind time and time again!

anw im leaving tmr :D damn excited!!
alrights gtg ciao(:

p.s: im seriously very disappointed in you.
so much for thinking that u're nice.

2009-11-16T09:02:00.003+08:00

okay Os officially over yea. got this emptiness feeling. like nth much to do :/
gotta find a job soon mans!
anw this few days was kind of retarded. haha spent alot of days fishing/ prawn fishing(like some ah peks-.-) and out to pool plus shop(:
caught up with some retarded forever friends and stay overssssss.
im awaiting for next week to come cause im gg back to indo! gotta be fun cause my two cute potato cousins will be there :D

oh yea not forgetting i got someone to polish my sch durg killiney trg. heheh free labour but hope service is good.
spent sometime at Qway to choose shoe ytd. and i seriously felt like repaintin those shoe's colour. cause theres not much shoe havin e colour combi i like. end up i gave up choosing and let a KIND SOUL to help me choose.(im being nice just this once hahah)
oh anw killiney trg starting soon!!
and now im supposingly to be in sch trg but i decided not to go cause i don want suicide runs and lectures but thats not my main reason for not gg. haha
so i decided to go for afternoon's self trg! lazy i know.

alright gtg hopefully this week gonna be fun :D

anw to this particullar stalker. wth dont think u stay near my bro house u can stalk me i tell you. still ask me type bigger. want stalk then say la. bian tai. hahah
i'll be watchin you man! dont ever try to stalk me.
LOL

one step forward, two steps back :/

2009-11-08T18:53:00.004+08:00

woohoo. officially self declared holi on fri! :D
i seriously love this week ttm cause its my super lucky week.
start with monday.
SS in a morning was manageable i studied 4 chapts and 3 of them came out in the essay!
chem in the was super heng cause i JUST started studyin 2hrs before e paper. infact i wanted to give up on that paper but i still force myself to study.
me and vivien bombard mrs thomas alot of question and those Qn we asked came out in da paper. super amazing and i was smiling like some idiot thru out e whole paper. hahah
wed had geo paper.
im sure most of them who took river&coast got e shock outta their life when they saw e first Qn.hahahah.
i keep flipping e paper and insert to see if its an error or what so ever. and keep lookin at e Qn no. hoping that its my eyes playing tricks on me. the worst is i even feel like raising up my hand to ask if its printing error but upon seeing no one raising up their hand. i decided to face e fact and spent more than 5mins thinking how to crap thru e paper.
and in the end. i manage to think of sth to link to e qn. but i din managed to elaborate clearly for e last 2 qn cause not enough time-.-
fyi the question is saying abt some tropical forest/deforestation(i cant rmb).
thurs had e killer paper POA. i was freaking stressed out for this sub.
i thought i'll die thruout e paper but heng paper wasnt that jialat.
hopefully i can pass man.
friday had bio in the afternoon but woke up super early and went to sch with siman and sheena.
weeahlian teachin ppl math so we tot of joining e math class to LEARN.heheh.
but in da end toh and wee rejected us cause they thinks that we're there to disturb.
walao wake up super early just for math leh. not serious enought meh? hahah
oh yea me and sheena got chased out first due to me(i din hide)
we thought siman can hang on longer without tcher realising but wth aft 5 secs her turn to kena-.-

oh yea not forgetting ytd. i went out with andy yujieh daniel and jacquelin to celebrate da niao's birthday!
had a fun time catchin up with them to talk abt those "old times"
movie,jac house party,lunch and crapssssss.
waiting for antene to come back from aus and theres gna be a OLD TIMES party!
miss those moments man(:

two more papers to freedom! hopefully this coming week will be my lucky week too (:
okay sucha long post i know. gtg ciaosssssss

its just temporary, it must be temporary

2009-10-31T13:13:00.003+08:00

i wna go holi i wna go holi i wna go holis man. dang :(

alright for that sentence above.im gna make it come true aft my last paper!
my parents was super clever ttm. cause they thought that my last paper ends at 6 nov which is 5 days before e real last paper. so they booked 7 nov tickets to taiwan and happily called me after that to inform me about the "HAPPY" news. jitao not one clever man. so im gna miss another oversea trip durg Os. i've alr missed 3 previously. sigh.
okay shall skip that

had math and angmoh paper this week. heng paper was manageable. it was quite hillarious on mon cause ms leong jia ning bang on to a pillar aft saying bye to houyee. the impact was so loud that everyone at e court turn and look at us. as usual, our first reaction was laughing our heads off.
went to sch early like 11am on tues an wed when our paper starts @2.30pm
bombard ms toh with lotsa math Qn causing her to feel damn nervous for us(like kinda weird hur?)
wednesday was damn shock for me and siman cause of ms toh's incident. but she look like a transformer cause within an hour she transformed back into a piece and it seems like nothing happened at all-.-
teacher now a days are so scary till we dont know what they're gna do durg e next moment mans.

oh yea not forgetting like an hr ago a bulldozer drove into my house trying to dig sth.i dno what e hell my dad was thinking about but i knew my neighbours was like turning their attention to my house.jitao not one paiseh-.-

gna have ss, chem, geo poa and bio next week.
time to pray to guanyinma and flood myself with notes and works.
gtg
ciaos

im tired of playing hide and seek game with you

2009-10-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

2 more days to DOOMS DAY!

okay idk why i've been sneezing for alot of time EVERYDAY.
i think my nose got prob cause last week my aunt just told me tt when i was young i stuff rice inside my nose and kena hospitalised.HAHAH what a joke right.
or maybe someone is missing me thats why la.
i know its U laaaa :D

mathmathmathmath.
i've been doing math for almost everyday. and seriously i hope my math grades will go upupuppppppp!
alright last day of sch is on tues. so i din pon that day cause i scared that i'll regret forever for not attending e last day of sec sch. as usual. attendence is super good ttm.

Os begun with sci practical on thurs. im damn happy that i din cut e stupid onion. but e anions ans for y is sup irritating-.- okay since pract is over so yea forget it forget it.
stayed in sch for math and poa till ard 5.30. brain was drainin up durg poa so me and weeahlian went bonkers abt e poa Qn.
im quite worried for math cause im afraid e results will be disappointed even thou i've been doing math all e time. for angmoh aiya. just by luck la. bobian-.-
gotta start on SS and chem soon.

well gtg lucks to those whos taking Os.
aft i click on PUBLISH i mustmust finish at least 2 chem and 1 poa paper tonight!
alright bye peeps(:

2009-10-19T18:21:00.002+08:00

7 daysss..
lets destroy the freaking lab on thurs!

to the particular you.
its not entirely ur fault.
i've been hiding sth from you since e first day begain.
im freaking irritating and angry with myself every single day.
thats e reason why i could forgive u every single time when something wrong happens.

just bear this in mind

when u're gotta go again.
pls let me leave before you do.

2009-10-16T21:00:00.000+08:00

with two scary girls(:

with mei hua leiiiiii

Amelia's B'day :D

wed had our graduation ceremony. but before e ceremony, we had 6 blocks of lesson-.-
e ceremony was a funny one instead of a emo one. ppl imitating tchers and off tune voices made everyone laugh like crap. ended off with tcher's emotional speech. CHR is definitely a place to be for me(: aft ceremony we stayed in sch then we began to camworeeee k i think i shall not use we but instead them (siman,jianing weizhen,sheena) this 4 girls is damn hiong one. keep taking pics.
siman was e joke of da day cause she mistook weizhen's backview as jianing's and ended up revenge at poor weizhen[thanks to vivien liew who told siman that e shorter(weizhen) one is jianing]. everyone laughed like maddddddddddddd.

thurs was marking day=no sch!
but still i went back to sch and STUDY! wanted to do poa and math but ended up doing math from 9.45 till 4 plus and then went to disturb those lower sec who were having camp.
watched siman they all play e maze thing and i purposely led them to e wrong way.lol
of yea we scare those lower sec by touchin them in e maze and making scary noises which cause 3 malay girls to cry from e start of e maze till they come out. e last girl was e damn jialat one cause she cried till quite jialat even though shes out of e maze(cause when she open e exit door siman go scare her agn.haha). had super lotsa fun scarin them but headed off soon for amelia's bday(:
celebrated for her at some steamboat shop in bugis. its been long since we gather tgt alr(:
so yea ate till 10pm++ and took a free ride back to yck with amelia.

tday was a super shag day for me. wanted to do high elements! but last min gt sth on. siannnnnn. :/
oh yea home sweet home aft tt(:

next thurs prac! oh myyyyyyyyy :/

how do i know when its over.

2009-10-10T20:58:00.004+08:00

PARTY@ mdm heriyani's houseeeeeeee :D

okay lets start with monday(:
was quite a normal day in sch for me but at night it was diff!
rode vivian's bike and headed down to yijun's house with her at 11.40pm plus
ohohohoh before that we bought 7 cute cupcakes at cwp hahah.
reach her house at 11 plus gg to reach 12am. we wna lid e candles but heard some noises at the stairs. went to see. another 2 ppl tryin to decor yijun's block's stairs.
whats e big occasion man? its limyijun's bday when its 12am!
so yea me vivian april and phoenix raced against time by placing candles at the stairs till 11th storey. and every level placing one cupcake. oh just nice 7cupcake is being used up cause shes stayin at 4th storey.hahah.surprised her at not 12am sharp cause of the candlessssssss.
nd everyone of us were sweatin like hell. made her blow all da candles nd headed to her hse awhile then bike home with ms kam(:

so tues i skipped sch.felt damn guilty ttm cause tt day theres 16 absenteess so means class oly gt 14 students-.- so had lunch with kam and b'day girl. zb nd obiang came along too. then went for my vaccination.obiang shocked e nurse cause she acci saw e nurse tryg to inject my arm then obiang shouted.the nurse jumped and it almost scare e hell outta me cause she was about to inject freaking needle into my hand-.- oh yea headed to study with her but it was super not prouctive as not in much study mood.

wed was alright. but still 16 absenteesssssss. damn good la the attendance. gd till vivien liew decided to write ppl who attended e lesson tt day instead of e absentees cause its rly alot to fill the absentees corner-.- oh yea stayed in sch for poa tt day. but din stay for long cause wasnt feeling well aft e vaccination.

thurs had our last PE :(
this freaking 5 yrs for me. its the first yr first time i loved pe so much. i guess some of e ppl in my class also felt the same way as me.
because of pe. our terrible attendance turn out excellent. like this whole week thurs gt e best attendance la. this show how much we love that one hr lesson.
as usual had lotsa laughter and fun durg mr azman lesson. was quite sian and sad when mr azman end e lesson aft encouragin us in our studies sayin that its not too late even thou that day is like 18 days left to big Os. hahah but yea he is a great pe tcher(:
oh yea headed for poa agn aft bio mock. stayed till 6 i think? scare yijuan and weeahlian abt ghost nd they end up don want to use sch toilet even thou they felt urgent. damn hillarious la. LOL

fri was a supppppppp boring nd shag day for me but mrs yeo words was always super encouraging. nd she officially declared that theres no study break for us even thou we wrote letter to request for it. good job right? :/
but aye most of e ppl also self declare study break for themselves nd absent for like dono how many dayssss so its like no dif at all-.-
oh had chem mock aft sch ytd. my mood was alright till this freaking guy screw it durg e test.
he was freaking irritatin ttm. keep talkin when we're havin e paper totally distract nd made us cnt concentrate. he think that giving students foolscape when students need it is not his job eh?
hello u're just a part time so yea just do ur job nd keep quiet will be a gd job for urself.
im sure everyone was like giving the wtf face la.

okay its quite a long post this time so yea i guess i shall end here now.
im having a v badddddddd attitude this week. :/
i've been nose bleeding for almost every day recently.
nd i got a bad feeling about it

i wouldnt want to take ur heart.
cause if i did, u cant be there alive for me anymore.

2009-10-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

first week stayin in spore was rather a boring one for durg e first few days :/
skipped sch on wed to have my passport collected nd thats like finallyyyyyyyyyy
but i went back sch aft tt for poa consultation! some teachers was quite funny cause they din realise i was absent that days when i greeted them-.-
like mr shen,i said hi to him and he hi back without asking me why i skipped sch. mdm heriyani even chatted with me till i somehow hint her abt the absentees that day then she realised. super hillarious ttm.

oh next day had 4e1'09 birthday celebration at mdm heriyani's house. had alot of fun over there. i like to kajiao e maid with malay and her kids is super shy i think.cause she reject whatever single thing i offered her.ahah celebrated till 9 plus nd i cab home.
next morning i was damn exhausted durg lesson time esp durg 2hrs of math.
aft sch celebrated teacher wee ahlian's birthday. sang bday song in canteen and almost everyone in e canteen sang tgt. ms foo walk out from GO cause we sang super loud till 2nd level can hear. but i seriously hope we wont get into trouble on monday morning. as usual. i began e cake fight by puttin cream on our dear birthday girl's face.
and she revenged. shaun and yi hang did e same thing to her but oly yi hang managed to escape. i gang up with ms wee and help her revenge! HAHA paiseh ah shaun.
2nd time i tried using e cream to threaten wee ahlian. she ate e cream on my finger. damn-.-
aft celebration went to remedial then headed down for vaccination nd home sweet home.
i miss my bed damn lot till i woke up at 12pm tday.haha

oh yea this week boxim daddy scare me when i was waking back home, a frisbi almost hit my head when i was walking. darren tan soon hin freak me out when i wanted to open e door. i had a super disgustin blister when i was balling with houyee and gang. ji steady right-.-

wonder whats up next durg this coming week~

this weekend how should i start.

2009-09-25T21:46:00.003+08:00

this week was rather a fun week.
cause ytd and just now i played paint with xuewei while we were helpin my dad to repaint the house. we drew alot of stupid stuffs which made the wall freakin ugly ttm and kena scolded by my dad big time. haha but then we were still laughin our hearts out cause the master piece was a idiotic one. will upload e photo when i recieve! :D

oh yea tmr im gonna stay in spore till exams are over. but still will b gg back every weekend yo. dad and mom gg oversea for freaking 2 weeks in 4 country. i wna go mannnnnnnnnn. its been super long since i went oversea durg my holis. sian but im gg oversea aft my last paper ends! :D

oh yea tmr im gg back to school for freaking math mock test. i had chem test ytd, math an bio test tday tmr math agn. gd job laaaaa. ahwells i guess i gonna end here and back to study.
ciaos~

hmmm did i mention that im gna represent my class to have a speech on graduation day with srijan?
if i tell you im not scared and nervous abt it.
im sure thats a LIE
:/

i saw us break, i watch us fall.
it makes no sense to me at all.

2009-09-24T20:13:00.001+08:00

It's takin' it's toll girl
This silence is cold
We're stuck at a dead end
I'm startin' to wonder
Did i say something wrong?
I keep askin' the question
Will you turn around and come with me?
Or should i read the signs and leave and let you be?
Now i'm standin' at this roadblock
And there's no way around it
I've been waitin' for your mind to change
Cuz i feel so one sided

I saw us break
I watched us fall
It made no sense to me at all
You say that you will
But then you don't
So i'm gonna take this step alone
In my heart of hearts
I always knew
This jump was way too far for you
You say that you will
But then you don't
So i'm gonna take this step
I'm gonna take this step alone, alone

So give me a reason
Why you're on the outside
When you should be in
When we'll get together
So maybe it's better
I walk alone but you'll always be near

Now there's no room for settlin'
I gotta do this, i need to
But this mirror i'm lookin' in
There's no reflection without you

Cuz i saw us break
I watched us fall
It made no sense to me at all
You say that you will
But then you don't
So i'm gonna take this step alone
In my heart of hearts
I always knew
This jump was way too far for you
You say that you will
But then you don't
So i'm gonna take this step
I'm gonna take this step alone

The sanctity i found deep in your arms
It was a false alarm and it burns yeah it hurts
I lie awake at night and think of what we could have been if it worked
Then we chose to go our separate ways instead of meeting each other halfway
And if i had to choose girl, i'd have you by my side

2009-09-19T11:14:00.003+08:00

i hate being sickkkkkkk :/
skipped school ytd. was down with slight fever and headache.
damn irritating cause i wna go play e 1 min shootin after sch but i cant
suckssssssss ttm.
so yea i just simply stayed at home for e whole of ytd and i almost slept through the whole of ytd.
managed to do some math and bio. tday i wna clear my math stuffs. but i doubt i can do that cause i feel so weak at da moment.

39/38 days more to first paper of Os. anyone is kind enough to help me find my motivation back??
i seriously need it nownowNOW if nt im sure im gotta fall big time durg e paper.
i feel sooooo.....nvm-.-
jiayou everyone jiayou ngxinfang.

ciaos

dont come and distract me!

2009-09-16T20:40:00.004+08:00

just listen and not comment.

im in a freaking bad mood this week.
its the last lap nd i wna stay in spore cause i feel so lethargic traveling and when the moment i entered into the class i'll start to feel like sleeping.
im sure if this goes on and when my results back,im gna sleep for e rest of my life nd do nth la.
but the most irritatin part is that im having a hard time tryin to convince my parents to let me do that.
GG-.-

anw tmr we're gg to have PE! omg i love thurs man. just hope that P wont take away our precious pe moments AGN

k back to what i wna say.(nd thats e reason why i will blog tday)
theres blog fight gg on recently eh?and im gg to join in for this once
at first i seriously dont want to comment cause its rly none of my business.
and trust me,this sepcial post is for those who are not link in the conflict(means anyone except 4 e 3 main characters)
BELIEVE IT OR NOT. im not tryin t side anyone from e start of the conflict till now.
CAUSE 3 OF THEM IS MY FRIEND AND I KNOW 2 OF TIME FOR 2 YRS EXCEPT FOR ONE IS 3 YRS
one who support me and console me when i retain, one who always teach me schoolwork and one who always help me take note of things when im away and remind me.
get it? they are my FRIENDS.
so from the start till now, i heard alot of colourful stories among each other and yea i treat it as stories.
supposingly i should be helping my friends to stop this irritating thing.
i tried, its out of control and as a friend im not supposed to comment anyth to any of the 3 characters.
some of you may think that what im saying now is some kind of funny joke but hey if u dont believe, come straight infront of me and talk to me since we all are in the same class.
do you know how tiring and sad it was to see ur friends having such kind of problem and yet u cant even do a single thing to help at all.
so why is there a need for you to comment when it dont interfere your life and most importantly it don link to you?
if you're trying to make the situation worst,trust me, im gg t stop you infront of everyone cause im not gg to let you do that to my friends.
even i dont comment about it. so can you just listen and dont comment to those colourful stories?
seriously im shock about it. cause i least expect that u'll say those things.
dont make me come straight to you in class.cause i rly dont wna do that at all.
its the last lap, only less than 2 mnths more to go.
so can u just ignore it or if you wanna comment anyth just kep it to yourself or talk to ur soft toy at home.
just make sure that what ever freaking thing u've said, i wont know abt it or it wont spread to my ears.

get it? its their problem,not ours so just freaking stay out of it if u aint helping at all.

if u're clever enough, just ignore and live your life.

2009-09-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

wtc am i thinking abt man.

alright back to this week.
was quite a normal week except for tues cos it was fun! :D
super last min went out with wei and guys cos they station at my hse waitin 4 me to go home without telling me-.-
went out for dinner,prawnfishing,then played pool at some place which looked ulu.
and we saw ahgua playin pool and thats seriously damn...........
cant stop laughin cause that ahgua is playin beside our table and i think he/she knows what we're thinking:X

oh yea i went ITshow on thurs and bought quite alot of stuffs for myself(cause im not the one payin :P) wanted to buy bluetooth headset but end up buyin wireless mp3. so yea dad bought two cause another one for wei. she was damn happy ttm but she suppressed her feeling for idk what reason.and i begain to laugh at her idiotic face.ahah
so thurs reach home quite late and i decided to skip friday's lesson which is eng and geo(3.5hr to look at chong i might as well die-.-)
night meet mao and houyee they all and ball.today went back sch to support boys
went back msia saw mao again. hahaha

oh yea i rmb what soon xueli say to me @cold storage last week
i was like
eh heard that u're stackers star ah?then now got killiney liao u coming back to play?
xueli: ah no la. now got killiney then i go back killiney be killiney star lor.
i went O.O at her and laugh.xueli u damn pro man

and anita is funny cause she wna order minced meat noodle but end up saying mice meat noodle.
damn pro la she. eat lao shu one. tsktsk

alright i guess i shall end here.will update soon!

wonder how the story will be like durg end of year :/

2009-09-04T19:56:00.002+08:00

miss those times when we're doing stupid stuffs tgt.

alright prelims is officially over. this means that the real big one is coming.
i wont say im not scared of it because when i say that, im obviously lying to myself-.-
because of prelims, i din really step into the court and ball for weeks i think? not even for training la.
so yea today i finally went to ball! :D
then i realized everyth deproved:/
stamina,strength,skills and etcetc
ahwells. im gonna train back my stamina next week(:
cause killiney trg maybe starting on next next week?

anw next week is holis! but aye nth to rejoice abt cause we still hafta go back school for lesson everyday(except for tues,sat,sun)

alright idk what to type anymore so i guess i'll update agn when sth interesting happen HAHAH
so yea ciaos~

nobodys gonna take the share of me away from you.
and no one could ever do that.
so trust me, i wont leave you alone
just let me be there for you.

2009-09-01T18:51:00.002+08:00

yes, nobody is gonna take that away from you.

alright i made it back on time for yesterday.
the funeral was like..... idk how to say:/

k celebration was cool/funny.
i played netball interhouse and i was trying to make friends with the male teacher durg the game so that we wont end up playing catching in the game.
but still i failed and i chase after him till damn tired-.-
oh anw scoreboard sucks cause it totally spoiled thou it cost like thousand dollars-.-
gathering was canceled ytd as sch closes at 1pm.damn irritating

im down with this fever which almost caused me to sleep for the entire day.
im like bedridden and i drag myself up to blog and study for tmrs paper.
how hardworking eh? like crap
i think im having moodswing now cause im like pissed with myself for no reasons-.-
i think the fever is causing this to happen.
ahwells bye.

i think, its just a case of too much thoughts.

2009-08-29T20:21:00.002+08:00

when im in trouble,u'll always stand up for me even when im wrong.
when i feel so lost,u'll never fails to give me a call.
and i'll never ever forget about you.
thanks for being with me thruout this 17 years.
i begain to miss you alr :(
restinpeace

i guess i gotta accept the truth,you left us without saying anything.you left me here alone.i've lost a kin like you,a person whom i only trust in this world.
and now u're gone.theres no one i can really rely on.im sure im unable to trust anyone in my life anymore.

TEAMchristchurch!

k lets change topic.
hmm this week was rather a tired week i guess? still a exam week for me and in the coming week theres paper too! :/
been going home quite early everyday except for yesterday and today. collected back my phone on thurs and thats like finally!
anw i've postponed my trip to tmr!
alright ytd supposed to watch movie but due to some delay we missed the movie!
walked to amk hub with zb nd obiang then watch them plan sth for quite long.hahah they seem to be so stress and end up me feeling stress for dono what reasons too-.-
so movie thingy was postponed to today and we watched orphan! not bad not bad,movie was quite nice and i dont think its that scary just dono why someone so scared.haha. headed for lunch and obiang joined us so we studied for awhile?and then i went back msia.(:

hmmm teacher's day celebration on monday and i hope the gathering will be a fun one?
ahwells just pray for the best ba.
gotta end here.
ciaos!

2009-08-22T16:08:00.003+08:00

i wna upload some pics. but aye my phone is still not back yet :/

alright this week was rather a fun+tired+stress+sad+irritated week(:

fun because monday we celebrated mdm wan's birthday ! headed down to 515 ball aft that and its been long since i really balled with them.
wednesday had upper sec interhse and we play like crap.juniors dont want let me sleep, people say i big bully on court. put alot of water till im damn guilty and its really SUPER kay!
friday lower sec interhouse i learn how to press the score board and it seems like im taking tv control to press like that.damn stupid.haha
and today watch boys match and got lotsa stupid crap.

stress because im having prelims! :(
wed had my eng paper ,thurs math paper 1,ytd math paper 2.
now 2 down alr. last paper ends at next next week. so sad :(
monday no paper! but im still gg school for consultation-.-

tired because i seriously need rest! i lack of sleep and everyday i slept quite late and woke up early!

sad because i got back my cheena results im super disappointed with myself for my grade
seriously hope i'll get better result durg end of year.

irritated because the freaking phone shop cheat my feelings! asked me go collect phone today and last min tell me phone still not ready. wth man.
i want my phone back. i want my msg back too. tskkkkkkk.
its gone its gone~

im sorry,the truth may hurt you,but it also set you free
i appreciate all those things.
takecare my friend

okay i think i shall stop here.
im missing somebody right now and i doubt that blur kia will know alright crap
ciao.

we lose what we once possessed.

2009-08-15T21:08:00.005+08:00

edited!
photos! :D

oh i rmb this photo! i ran to 3rd,4th and back to 2nd level.when i ran into the hall just nice they wanna photo.haha i was like panting at that time-.-

4e1'o9 <3

pls get well soon !

feel so pathetic right now cause i cant turn my freaking head freely:(
i think i sprain my neck durg pe on thurs. we were having fun playing touch rugby and i think when i "over fun" myself and i sprained my neck when i like so call dive at the touch down part.
hahaha.kinda retarted but still its fun leh! last pe know :(
friday went to school with my sprain neck and people in my class were laughing at me because of my movement-.-
i think because everytime i bully them then now they revenge by laughing at me. damn sad.hahah
they keep calling my name and make me turn around cause when i turn i have to turn tgt with my body and i look damn stiff. they think it was funny and kept laughing.
tskkkkkkkkkk.
now my neck is still not getting any better and i seriously hope monday my neck will be fine cause if not durg oral time the examiner will be like giving me the weird look-.-
theres interhouse basketball on wed too. falls on my first prelim paper-.- and im also getting back my cheena result on that day. wth man :/

anw sis met a pervert just now on the way home. that ah pek is sucha freaking asshole till i feel like making him to become a eunuch for showing his-.-
he was about the run when he saw us walking out from our house.
and my dog seriously don like people to run away when he appear so he chased after that ahpek and bite him on his leg. thats the part i loved most about my dog :D
oh we drag this pervertic guy to the guardhouse and went back home.

i think i shall end here cause i dont know what to type anymore

to me, you are always and forever the best(:

2009-08-08T20:00:00.001+08:00

when u lost one,and u're about to lose the 2nd one
its time for a breakdown.
cause thats what im feeling now.

this week is rather a tired week for me. most of the days i slept before 10pm.
lots of things happened but seriously now i cant remember any of it.
thursday supposed to be a very important day but the day its meaningless already.
friday had national day celebration and it was hot durg assembly. people were fanning themselves and the drama thing is making us laugh cause pris like got used to the role of being a fighter.haha
had chem test,basketball photo taking session and poa consultation.
ohohoh! class photo were nice (:
the photo design aint like the past few years and its kind of cute! haha

im seriously drained this week and i cant take it anymore.
every single thing is killing me and i feel like dying.
i thought having this shield will protect me from the pain.
but i least expect that the pain im having now came from other side
ive already lost one precious person.
i dont want to lose another one who accept my presence more than anyone else
pls get well soon will you.
tsk.
sometimes i really feel like going into coma for months or years.
so that i wont get to feel anything

i want to talk to you,but i dont know how and what to say.
i dont want to drift cause i dont want you to be my hi-bye friend
i need you to stay close to me once again,but as a different status.

ferry ride made me feel drowsy.
i guess i need a rest now

its ur fav day and no. today

2009-08-01T17:40:00.001+08:00

You hit me
And i end it to make sure its the last blow
Lets restart this game by not hurting anyone anymore
Cause when im hurtin,i aint happy

I tried my best to salvage it.
Now im gonna try my best to make it right.

New start. No ending

2009-08-01T08:58:00.004+08:00

okay lets talk about this week. monday went for trg cause all remedials were cancelled due to staff meeting. did running and stuffs. thought the running part was over but in the end i realised im wrong.
then coach suddenly say do suicide run for 17 times everyone was like pua stunt. i keep saying die die die cause its been quite long since i run and first time come trg i kena this kind of trg-.- but in the end coach only take timings so yar we are still alive. haha

yesterday went down rp to support yijun. before that met zb and obiang daohuey i was like starvin till not hungry alr.ahah walked around cwp with obiang and i keep wanting to walk to 950 busstop.she damn violent la. pulled my bag and drag me out of the 950 queue-.-
was like playing around then when zb came headed down to mac makan dinner. rushed to rp aft that. but when amanda came to meet us. she gave us a shock-.-
then watch match,talk to daddy and zf and home sweet home (:

when i dont expect that.
and you did it
what can i say or do when its alr over.

its not that i dont wanna say
but that i dont know how to

2009-07-29T22:29:00.003+08:00

alright firstly thanks those who wish me on my bday! somehow or rather i enjoyed my day today!(:

okay was damn shag today cause last night celebrated my birthday till 2am plus.
thanks to geron jeremy xuewei cause they never fails to be the first to wish me face to face and first to celebrate my birthday :D damn happy to know u guys for 7 years and time seems to fly so fastttttttttt. great to know you all man.

morning took xuewei's car to school cause i overslept. reach sch a lill late than usual but aye im still 2nd to reach class.lol was a sub long sch day of the week and i did math till i feel like fainting(weather too hot alr laaaaaa).
was trying to run away aft lesson ends but i was being stopped by bernard and co. damn cunning luh them. they got a SUPER CUTE HELLO KITTY CAKE for me.hahaha.
went to court to look at juniors for awhile then headed down to cwp to meet yijun and vivian for lunch.

was slacking with them at pastamania and then yijun went to the toilet. i was like thinking if yijun fell into the toilet bowl cause she took sub long to go to the toilet and back. so me and kam made use of the time talking about what we normally will talk about. ahaha. when yijun is back,KACHANG AND DAOHUEY SUDDENLY APPEAR BEHIND ME LA! damn shock to the max. din expect they will come and help me celebrate esp when they always say got to mug, remedials,trgs and blah blah blah.(and sickening obiang daohuey act yi ge dono i meetin yijun for lunch-.-) haha was touched dao you mei you. sing song cut cake then play with cream agn THANKS TO KACHANG my shirt kena alot of cream la. heng i got bring wet tissue :D ate and slack at pastamania till 6 plus then headed down to rp for 30mins and went home after that. super retarted i know ahaha
had fun with them althou 2 of them are like diff world from me yijun and kam, but ayeeeee still thanks to 4 of you! im really happy today :D:D:D:D:D:D

oh ya someone is super super nice to stay up late and wish me happy birthday uh! thou u send 3 mins earlier. but still u're first la! hahaha
(see i treat u nice eh so i never owe anyth ah?lol)

oh omg CHY u damn zai, still keep my photo and upload on ur blog!
what a special way of wish me hur. thanks ah ching hou yeeeeeeeeeeeee!
hahaha

okay i think i shall end here. cause i got mental block now-.-
thanks everybodyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D x millions

day and night,
theres still no sign of you.
but i still insist to keep the best for you

2009-07-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

okay this week seems like a challenging week cause from wednesday till today my activities is all messed up and flooding me-.-

wed had lesson,skipped consultation and went for kobe asia tour!
he is seriously damn cool man.omgomg. the pro!
but the sian thing is i saw someone who always make me feel so irritated -.-

thurs went to school like some sleepy head.skipped science remedial cause of istana thing.
realised that we are the only students over there who never wear sch uni.damn funny-.-
took photos with uncle kim boon. our mentors leehsienlong(i wanna take with his father la!) and we wanted to take with nathan but alot people is like waiting and then suddenly he disappear-.-

friday went to sch dragging my feet. wanted to skipped school cause i seriously lack of rest but aye i turn over a new leaf and decided to attend! hahaha okay disgusting i know.
aft sch went to CSH. wanted to celebrate coach's belated b'day but we end up giving him bird nest. boys lost to RI and it was just a lill bit they could win. tskkk well nvm u guys tried your best.
girls match over liao but to me u all tried ur best. continue to strive hard for next year k (:
i went home aft gg CSH and then went to sleep ard 9plus. too exhausted to do anyth alr.

this morning woke up early and went singapore for math test :/
travelled ard singapore today and i was super tired.
now im back at bro house. tmr gg back msia and im super lazy to travel back :(
but i still have to...

i guess i shall end here.
poa test on monday GG man-.-

i got alot to say. but i dont know how to start.
i tried to endure thruout the whole bus journey.
but still,i lost control of myself.

broken this fragile thing now.
and i cant,i cant pick up the pieces.

2009-07-18T22:56:00.002+08:00

my handsome dog!

he is cute isnt he? (:

gathering with our mentors!(womens everest team)

charity time in chr

leong jia ning folding paper cranes

saw the box? everyone was folding including cher!

4e1 loves

never see ahlian folding paper crane before? this is it! haha ms wee ah lian :P

my table! :D

oh this is what me geron and wei did for a whole night which caused us to kena scolding till v jialat-.-

alright this week is no better than previous week cause everyday still stay back.
indoor court is ready and i managed to ball over there too!
i seriously hope i wont fall down in that court cause im v sure i'll be disfigured aft that :/
second level indoor court is sup nice too! but too bad we cant use unless theres competiton in sch.
okay girls lost their first national game on thurs and boys won their first national game on fri.
ah wells cheer up and congrats. strive harder for e remaining game k! (:
ytd aft sch had science remedial, poa consultation, balling, badminton and volleyball-ed with ahlian teacher and others.
oh my she managed to find my blog and i must be super careful with what im typing now. hahaha
oh ya seriously i hate this particular person which i think shes such a idiotic person without brain.but tsk i must respect her and im supposed to do that.
so irritating :/

aye im being so tired everyday to the extend that i feel like dying in class even when i slept at 10 on the previous night.something is going wrong with my body and i hope i'll faint and die soon cause im not looking forward to my special day infact im having the fear abt ur respond.

oh i want kobe ticket!!! hopefully monday i'l recieve good news :/
thurs president house!! (:

this fear im having is corrupting my life.
and i seriously hate it and dont feel like facing it. :(

2009-07-11T20:56:00.003+08:00

its been quite a hectic week for me.
i managed to finish my one stack of poa homework and thats like finally-.-
and now left with making friends with them and understanding them.haha

stayed back in school everyday for remedials and poa consultation.
and this week i din sleep durg lesson time!!!! :D
math lesson is flooding people with alot of worksheets and yesterday seems like math day cause i've been doing math for every lesson!
srijan said sth funny durg math lesson ytd
he asked teacher.

srijan: cher whats the difference between srijan and tangent
that teacher even replied what is srijan and ask how to spell it-.-
rita replied srijan by saying
rita: srijan is useless and tangent is useful

we laughed man.jokers

lots of things has been happening i guess.
and its like complicating for me cause most of the time i catch no balls abt whats happening-.-
oh thurs had fun fun fun pe lesson.
played modified captains ball and i accidently score when im not supposed to
(because those who score must go in and catch the ball and they don want me to go in-.-)
aww we lost to bernards team 2 times la.tsktsk :/

C girls trg ytd and i went down. had fun with them and i keep playing.hahaha
their game is starting soon.thou i think i cant go down watch but i hope they will do well .
anw theres another ebc presentation coming up. wont be participating i guess but im going to idk which sch to see them present!

ahwells. gotta go finish up my maths work now.
im going to chionggggggggg mans
bye.

and i cant say those heart felt words

2009-07-06T02:06:00.003+08:00

okay i think the oral thing is still making me feel v the.....-.-
nvm time heals wound.

its 2.07am and im not asleep.but who cares cause theres no sch tmr! :D
okay friday din went sch cause im too tired to go. sch called to my house :O
and he freaking disturb my slp at 10plus,lucky i really got cough and flu so i told them im sick.hahaha.

anw lets talk abt saturday. i went to singapore to have gathering with the womens everest team at ms puah house.theres alot of food and K.O after eating abit of it-.-
we had our card games as usual,cake cutting,photo taking and rubiks session.
they seem to be facinated by the rubik's and theirs laughter is seriously....WOW.
we were creating alot of noise at ms puah house till 3 plus.

the next meeting will be on 23rd at the president house.
they say wear smart outfit i think? omg i seriously dono what to wear sia.
hahah.eh LEONG! SMART LEH.how? die tgt ah? hah

alright i think i shall end here alr.
btw i think my baby cousin is seriously very cuteeeee.
she called me jie jie today.LOL
and my sis asked her to call me korkor-.-piangz
heng she still dono how to say kor kor(:

i dare not
maybe im losing myself soon
living in deceive

2009-07-02T19:37:00.001+08:00

Im sososoooo sad now:( i screwed up my chinese Os big time ! I made a big mistake and seriously feel like killing myself right now!
I think i was too nervous and it made me say out a english word. At that moment i was stunt and my mind totally went blank so i begin to bomb alot of crap till i don even know what im talking about.Tskkkk .
Everything is gone gone gone.
Just pray that they are nice enough to accept my crap now:/

Okay change topic. Yesterday when i was on my way home, i sprained my ankle when i was WALKING-.- call me a pro man. But i was lucky as its only a minor sprain and i only can feel abit of sharp pain.haha.
Okay anw i got a new math teacher cos my class was being divided into 4 or 5 groups. My math teacher is super good till no one in my group knows wtf shes teachin even thou she taught us the same question for 4 times. Damn pro right? And we're clever enough to give up asking and try to figure out how to get the ans by ourselves because we knew that even if we ask, we still wont get it. Oh i asked her to shut up when she was talking ytd and i kind of feel bad so i said sorry to her after that. Damn stupid i know-.-
Oh and i was being transferred from rabiah class to thomas the train class. I don know why i feel like sleepin whenever i see her face and hence i cant concentrate at all! Opps

Alright i think i shall end here cause my eyes is closing soon:/

2009-06-27T01:31:00.003+08:00

first of all..
happy birthday to brenda and sheryl!(:

alright back to blog. school gonna start in few days time and 1 mnth holis gonna end real soon.i haven even touch my poa and i guess the ahlian is gonna nag me to death when sch reopens :/
i may skipped sch a couple of days when sch reopens cause of some family stuffs but well i feel quite guilty for skipping sch too:/
mom may not let me skip too unless i kena quarantined by the school when the chances of being quarantine is like super small?haha

anw leong jia ning is jealous of my super special eating habits which made her cant believe that i can eat till so wen rou.haha.eh jianing u wna learn not? i can teach leh FOC one.haha!

i feel so energetic now a days and every night i slept around 4am plus or 5 plus then next morning i'll wake up before 11am. this is so sickening and i seriously dont like it because i think that its better to be asleep than awake.but till today i think i've small phobia of sleeping due to a dream :(
thou its just a dream, but my heart can feel the ache . tsk

ciaoooooooooooooooosssss

i begin to believe that its gone,
but untill today,i realised its buried deep down
and i still can feel it.
damn it.

i know i cant make you stay.
but i would give my final breath
to make you understand how beautiful u are...
you call me a stranger, you say i'm a danger

2009-06-26T10:06:00.003+08:00

okay this post is specially for ms chan siman .
why lei?
because durg last week she informed me that 24th is a super super super special day and i die die die must rmb!
but on the very special 24th june day. i totally forgot about it and still continue with my very special life by taking care of my niece and nephews and even brought them to watch transformers.!
suddenly last night chan siman came online and scolded me for forgetting the very special day.
and now im here to say sorry to ms chan si man....
si man sorry luh
not purposely one
i'll make one very special card for you and give u by tues or wed k(:

And lastly. Happy belated birthday:)

2009-06-22T16:21:00.003+08:00

xinfang,hang on there hang on there.

im gonna sleep soon i guess. too tired and din sleep for 2 days-.-
i think my dad gonna kill me when i reach home. haha dieeeeeeeeee.
headed down to sbc ytd to watch match. stomach was feeling terrible for the whole of yesterday :/ watch match till 9 plus and headed back with simin and zb. was shock when zb say she take HMT and we were like testing her some chinese thingy and making her say rao kou ling.we laugh throughout the whole journey and i think the cabin we're in knows abt my family background after having LOUD discussion with them -.-! hah.
reach home do math revision and today went for math mock test. finished quite fast and there was like 1 hr left. waiting for the time to pass and i went to ball aft that.

oh and to that particular you, i dono why today ur action is making me feel v disgusted.
dots-.-

theres mock paper 2 tmr! shucks :(

i need sometime more time alot of time and time time time before i talk to you again
im sorry :/

2009-06-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

Cause today you walked out of my life.
And cause today, your words felt like a knife.
Those memories are perfect and in pain but its going to bring me away.
Felt like asking you to stay again.
But i know this time goodbyes had to be said no matter how much i don want to.
Hope you will do well with everything.

Its dead

2009-06-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

It sucks when some words is so hard to say . I guess its gonna be another sleepless night again.
Tsk. Terrible days ahead:/

Train the juniors today. Weather is hot till im chao da now:/ free tannin no need go down sentosa one-.- was quite happy to see improvements from them and also that they came to training just hoping to play well in nationals. Hoping that their effort wont be waste and there will be good results:) one more week to school reopens.seriously i din enjoy this holiday plus its been a bad holiday for me i guess. Thanks for some buddies being there for me.
Alright gotta go. Bye

It seems like theres lies deep down inside. Making me feel so :(
When i needed a hug so badly but theres no one around.

2009-06-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

Okay im down with fever for the past few days and today i went to singapore prayin that my fever will subside. And it did! To the temp of 37.5 super heng man. If not i confirm cannot go school train-.-
Finally get to sweat out after so long and OMG i finally saw liang wei after 4 years. Miss her trucks lots man and i was damn happy to see her when she come court find me.Haha. Well now left with vivian ng dono where this stupid girl go after she quit school :/ TskTsk. Well straight after trainin headed down cwp with hy anita sm and ilina. We talk talk talk. Knife fly here fly there(k oly those around know e meaning hur.Haha).
Headed back to msia after that and i was super tired. I sat on the floor stone till i lay down on the floor and stone again. Okay super retarded i know but somehow just feel like laying down on the floor and not move for long and have a break. Lotsa things ran thru my mind. And Idk why other's conflicts can make me feel so frustrated. Haha

I don want :(
:S

2009-06-12T22:09:00.002+08:00

Well i was lucky i think. Din know i have math mock paper today and heng leong jianing told me last night. Thou its really super last min. But still thanks la girl.Haha. Heng the paper is repeated question one.lol
Im super bored la. Work sleep eat watch tv. I've been doing this durg most of the day for this week-.- damn no life. And now im having this freakin headache which i feel like chopping of my head now:/

Anw sis birthday on monday! :D having celebration tmr. Hope it'll be fun.
Well gotta run. Bye:)

All these years i've been telling myself its gonna be fine, don worry.
I guess this time im gonna tell myself the same thing again.

2009-06-09T12:16:00.001+08:00

Im bored :/
Okay lets start with sunday. Went singapore and saw wenting at e checkpoint. She said sth stupid which made both of us laugh like a madass.Haha

Me:" Eh you come from city square(shopping centre beside checkpoint) area there ah?
Wenting: no. My mother drop me opposite city square there.
Me: *stunt* isnt it city square area?

Then both of us start to laugh like mad.Haha tan wen ting you seriously damn dumb man.Haha

Headed down to sbc after that to watch match.then went to jianing house to suprise her but she was asleep when we've reach so we anyhow ask jiaqi tell jianing that jiaxin kena stalked like that. Damn stupid then the jianing blur blur come down to the pool like still in her dreamland like that.Haha

Aft that went home, monday morning woke up and went training but i skipped bio lesson without knowin theres bio lesson in the morning. Damn pro -.-' Hah.

Okay may be goin down malacca later with xw and geron they all. Walao super last min-.-

Okay i dono what to type anymore. Shall end here. Bye

And i'll keep falling in love with you again and again.

2009-06-06T14:52:00.001+08:00

I really don want things to end up what i really don want it to be.
Yet i don know what to do to make it right anymore.
Its just disappointment again and again. :(

2009-06-06T09:14:00.003+08:00

yet another sleepless night.

okay remedial week is over. but last week of holi theres 2 more poa lesson :/
been training the girls and i hope there will be improvement aft this june holi.
c girls played with sengkang girls on tues then me and anita become coach. but durg last 3 mins of the game we sub into the court and play and the opponent stunt.haha
eric was the referee and he purposely keep blowing foul on me and anita.walao eh :/

oh and ya today is leong jianing's birthday. happy birthday girl!
now 16 yrs old liao must stop being so irritating in class, stop trying to disturb me by waking me up when i want to sleep,stop laughing till like got asthma attack cause everyone will be worried. lastly thanks for helping me to copy notes when ever im lazy absent moody. haha. we are 1 year 6 months sitting partner leh! haha

okay im nice to come here blog cause someone asked me to.
im having 3 free weeks and i cant be 24hrs studying :(
well totally no plans for my holis now-.-
okay seriously i dont know what to type anymore just toll off mood.
bye

oh its day 6 of the month.
i doubt u'l realise it cause i guess we're gameover to you
okay i dont know why im feeling so terrible.
and i dont know why u can mean so much to me.
seriously u're the first person who im actually holding on to so much that even i cant control it.
Breakingidentity
tsk

2009-05-31T10:54:00.003+08:00

400th post.

chinese O tmr! omg. hopefully the paper is easy and i can do well.
its been a hectic week for me and ebc girls. everday stay-ed back to help up in presentation.
nafa test, trainings and chinese intensive bla bla bla.
chinese intensive is fun cause me siman jianing glenda kangjie sheena vivien and wenting keep crapping and played with tissue plus water.
taught them how to hit ppl with rubber band now siman keep wanna play rubber band games with me-.- now both of our hands got alot of blueblack.haha

friday was a stress day for me cause i don know if i should go for team treats and the saturn thing. rikki was so naggy and they threaten me by saying if i dont go shimin wont go then jiaqi wont go then rikki wont go then bla bla bla ending up the whole team wont be going for the treats. but in the end due to lazyness i last min decided not to go and headed back home.haha

well due to our randomness, those sitting around be in chinese lesson decide to play water bomb aft tmr's chinese Os. super random i know. cause every time in between chinese break we will be playing water and wet vivien liew. and we will crap by saying toilet bowl explode and stuffs. haha retarted peoples.

i waited for 6 terrible days and im the one to surrender first. :/
i seriously hope it wont happen again cause im damn freaking worried
next time pls tell me first alright?
this 6days aint easy at all :(
u seriously played a important role in my life.

2009-05-24T09:22:00.002+08:00

because i dont know what to do to make things right anymore
im trying trying and trying.
in the end im still falling.
just tell me whats the problem
cause i really hate the situation now.
the uneasy feeling,
the totally crap feeling
its all killing me deep down inside..
i just cant leave all this aside :/

2009-05-23T12:07:00.004+08:00

back to blog!
well today is Boxim Daddy's Birthday and also Dumb's birthday!
wish you two a veryyyyyyyyyyyy happy birthday!(:

and on 21st is lim zimin's birthday too. happy belated bird day(:
alright sch nowdays was suckyyyyyyyyyy.
3 hrs cheena intensive is killing me cause its super super boringgggggggggg.
and the freaking classroom is hotttttttttttttttttttttt. :/
anw went for trg on wed and thurs. i sprain my ankle for my first trg on wed like what the hell-.-
train the girls and played.haha. well its been kind of long since i attend trg. and jianing vivien thinks im crazy cause i think i abit high when doing the 30mins running. but aft running coach say do suicide run. so im very clever to siam and go other court to ball and skip e suicide run :P

ytd was superb tiring for me. aft sch need to rush to alot of places like back to sch for meeting and training the girls.
and and and THANKS WEIZHEN FOR HELPING ME! ya u know u know. hahah

actually i should be on the way to meet the EBC girls now cause got presentation ard 2 plus. and im still at my bro house. hohoho. die confirm late. well presentation at RP. so stress!!!! and ltr going out aft that for some celebration. hoho. alright enough of crapping. gtg ciaos!
5 more cheenaa intensive daysssssssss :(

it kinda sad to hear what u've said to me.
but it hurts even more when i keep making you sad
:(

2009-05-19T17:07:00.002+08:00

paper officially over!!
and two more weeks to cheena Os-.-

alright ytd night went reunion dinner.but in the end it dont look like one cause dajie,melissa,uncle deepak and alice pangseh us.
bobian one busy,one oversea, two sick-.-
went sakura and makan makan talk talk. mdm wan also join-ed us for dinner! haha
aft makan makan went black track to play with wenting yuki and xiao mei. took alot of jumpshot photos and the timer thing is making us to laugh cause we dont know when to jump-.-!
aft that crap around and home sweet home :D
today no sch but still went back to sch for meeting in the morning till 4pm plus. cause i left first and go back msia. played piano in hall and still learning that song
omgomg.alright
i think i gotta end here. will upload photo soon!

ciaos.

p.s: 2nd reunion dinner with everyone and SWET team soon!!!!!

if i got that chance, i'll show you(:

2009-05-16T13:11:00.002+08:00

Just so you know this feeling is taking control of me and i cant help it.

Well today is wei's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! May all your wish come true.
Alright i should be having party now but well kind of no mood already plus i gotta study.one more paper to go! Mug mug mug. 2more days to reunion dinner with the girls!

Science prac is FUN .after prac being lock-ed up with others in ava room. Played big two, cheat. Was having fun with them and zhiyen cannot play cheat cause shes bad at saying lies :o so everytime when its her turn, she'll just take the cards-.- Haha.im the first to finish the cheat game but it don mean that i always tell lies alright. Im always true to my words(except when playing games) HAHA.
Maxine toh is totally different from zhiyen.TskTsk. Everytime lose then want replace me and play for me.
Atiqah another one. Super scary and im superb afraid of her. Well shall not say why cause jianing they all know-.-

Well cheena Os is coming in like few weeks time and im like facing it with a super normal mood while some friends around me panick like hell.mayb i should really put more effort from today onwards.
Alright back to study mood now. Ciaos:)

No matter what. You are still RANK NO.1 IN MY HEART even thou im no.4 to you.
Ah wells. I hate it when things go wrong again last night:/
I really want to cherish and treasure.Tskkk

2009-05-13T21:31:00.001+08:00

全世界都停了电,全世界都封了街

Finally math paper over-.- left with poa pp2 which is tmr and science prac, mcq on friday and mon:/
Ah wells 3 more to go so endure endure! Currently also awaitin for 18th may cause meeting EBC girls! Omg miss crapping with them! And of cause i miss the basketball team too:( those memories just went through my mind and felt like going back to the past when we fought hard together for our goals. Now each and everyone of us have our own different goal which cause us to go separate ways. But i believe when ever we recall back to the past, our hearts are joined together as one. Okay i feel very emotional now:/

shall update again soon. Got to study!
Lucks to those having exams:)

Christ church chiong ahhh! :D

2009-05-08T11:43:00.003+08:00

instant kill. dead

im exhausted to e max. im like killing myself with notes and revisions.
first time durg exam i din get to slp much. and the feeling is like torturous.
cleared my eng,chi,chem,ss,poa pp1 and math pp1.still got math pp2,geo,bio and poa pp2 to go.
i wonder how many nights i need to finish all this.
math paper totally murdered me today. when i flip thru the papers i know pp1 gone case already.
end of paper 1 everyone toll no confidence.
if paper 1 like that then paper 2 confirm even more worst.
first time in my life did maths paper untill like that.tskkkkkkk

stayed back in sch almost everyday for poa consultation.
and i heard that e 24 yr old ahlian look alike teacher wna so call pinch me cause of my careless mistakes.haha mayb i should avoid seeing her in sch to save myself.

life aint fair at all. some people lose their precious, some people get precious .
even no matter how we want to keep it. we will still tend to lose it.

i know i still care alot.
but i just cant control myself again.
xinfang u're sucha loser

dont give up on the ones you love for the ones you like.
because the ones you like will give you up for the ones they love.

i just dont understand the situation now.
and im taking risk again

2009-05-01T11:23:00.007+08:00

okay i shall briefly talk about whats going on for the past few days.

-i did 2.4km run like finally and some classmates think that i'll get a good timing cause i went EBC(like excuse me i walk up to the base camp not run up to the everest base camp eh-.- haha)

-got back my 6/30 super difficult cheena test.
(first time in my life i flunk cheena and thats a record! haha)

-conclude that wang wei zhen is diagnosed with morning down syndrome because shes insane when she entered into the class in e morning.

- had ang moh paper which scares outta hell of me.

-cheena paper which pulls my confidence level down cause i feel that i cant score well

-having hand cramp durg last five mins of cheena paper and that was stupid

-staying back in school almost everyday for POA consultation with ms wee
( the 24 yr old ahlian look alike teacher.haha)

-mugging like hell cause im having MYE examination when my last paper ends at 18may:(

-met up with vanessa and watch moooweeee tgt.

-watch the c div NZ finals

-being informed by mspuah that EBC team gonna do presentation in various schools

-was being crushed cause i realised my schedule is being messed up on a particular very
imporatant day in may.

-gonna be a good kid and stay at home from today till sunday to mug and eat up all the books

-read a Q which jianing had posted and it kept me thinking for e whole of wed night.in the end i never get to study the cheena format-.-

-gave gum the Q and she was irritated by e Q haha

-having stress in the exam hall cause if i make any loud voice everyone will be giving me the "you-are-weird" kind of look.

-finally balled after i came back from the trip

-flooding myself with lotsa test and homework which is driving me insane

-sneak out of e house durg midnight and met up with the yandaos and mei nus

-dabao-ed lunch for dajie with the ebc girls and delivered to her when shes teaching

-had a dream last night which i hate most.

okay i think i shall end here. gonna go study again :/
aft mids theres prelims and Os.
well this shows that life is soooooo good.like real-.-

im trying and trying.
theres no ending

2009-04-27T21:26:00.006+08:00

one more day to mids.
schedule is toll tight for me.
gonna treasure mins and seconds to strive for the best.
anw just now drank a cup of milk contain dono what chemical thing which almost took my life away.
vomit till siao like im going to vomit out my whole stomach.
i hate that terrible feeling and im still having it now :/

i've been staring into space recently.
bringing me back to somewhr where i shouldnt belong.
kept reminding myself to stay alert at all times.
but deep down inside my brain it seems like theres a activate alarm clock
and it will ring without knowing.
i just cant stop or control it.
its begaining take control of my mind

朋友都再问我：“他到底哪里好？”
我也只能打从心底的说：“不懂你哪里好，就懂你在我心中的位置谁也取代不了”

认识了，喜欢了，就是了。
怎样也改不了心中的决定。
因为当被心中的感觉击败了自己，
真正的自己也无能为力了。

(say goodbye-chris brown)
theres never a right time to say goodbye
but we know we gotta go our separate ways
and i know its hard but i gonna do it and its killing me
cause its never a right time,right time to say goodbye
---------------------------------------------------------

if only its like a pencil mark which could be erased
but in fact its not
i guess leaving it aside is better than forcing myself now at a wrong time.
jiayou xinfang!

2009-04-27T20:29:00.002+08:00

family!

i look like a pirate just without a blindfold eye. hahaha

family with our personal maid =P

teacher going to fight?! hahah

roomie tan offering sweets to porters.

feeding dajie and teaching her how to eat more portion of food with spoon.haha

dajie says: maid u din do a good job in feeding me and im gonna send u back to msia str8 away!
maid says: sorry mom,give me a chance.
(hahahaha)

using the BP thing and this guy come to me and say he wna measure his.
(others started using camera to take photo of me taking his BP and they say im trying to attract guys with this. hahah)

introducing the balancing king KRISHNA. hes damn good at this'

arm wrestling with da jie .and seriously she really got the strength and we draw sommore leh

me v.s ms puah. she just beat me in less than 5 secs-.-

yuki v.s da jie

PLS TAKE NOTE THIS IS NOT A STATUE IN NEPAL. IN FACT THIS IS CHERRY!
this is how she normally dress almost everyday. cannot see her face except for eyes-.-

well thats all for today. ciaos

2009-04-26T13:06:00.006+08:00

photos!

tea break,2 swuah kus

acclimatization climb(:

in the swet team's tent

walking in the freaking snow storm.mind u,its cold!

and now snow fight pics.............

lapha v.s melissa

me v.s lapha

dustbin bullying da jie

dajie hiding behind prayer stone cause she know everyone is gg to attack her.haha

whole team playing

while they are having snow fight, i was in the middle doing this.haha
wanna make basketball but not enough time cause they are targeting me-.-

us aft snow fight

my roomie going crazy at brushing her teeth-.-

last night in nepal having celebration

photo with uncle tin and uncle khrisna before gg back singapore

2009-04-25T21:43:00.002+08:00

e learning ytd was super stupid. i hate mrs C cause her homework is flooding me in elearning.
arghh.but bad thing is that i woke up quite late to do the elearning.hence not enough time to finish all-.-
spent whole afternoon clearing my school "stock" and i realised i still got 4 compre one report one proposal to write.for cheena i got 2 compo 2 write. and maths plus science i got few test paper to do by tmr.how great is that. maybe i need hire few genius and get them do for me.okay im being crazy here.
last night wna have party craze outside my house with 3 crazy friends.they wna clear my stupid mind and fill my brain with laughter. but in the end we kena complains from my neighbour :/
so in the end i decided to go home and have peace.but thanks to 3 of them at least i get to let off sth and also thanks to them my room is really in a big mess-.-

okay im seriously outta my mind i dont know what im thinking now and my life is in a mess.
i need to rant and find something to vent on. just feel like finding someone suitable to talk to but i cant and i dont know how :(
alright bye

2009-04-23T20:24:00.002+08:00

okay sorry no photo for this post cause im damnnnnnnnnnn tired now.
been slping at ard 1am every night since monday. trying my best to finish that one stupid stack of 18days homework.till now the one stack of homework like never decrease like that.tskkkkk.
heng tmr e-learning day and i guess i'll be slping early tonight to charge my energy.

had my hair cut ytd. YAY!
but today go sch a lot people say my hair very short.okay maybe this time i cut it too short alr cause atiqah reaction was like quite big-.-
anw class seating arrangements changed again. well im lucky that im still seating with irritating leong jia ning. cant blame that we always so quiet in class so since sec3 we have been seating partners till now.

Cdiv game tday.well hopefully this match will be a lesson learn and girls could play well in the national round.i think i'll be having sorethroat tmr cause durg the match i shout till siao.

1 more week to mids and i need more timeeeeeeee.tsk

gtg.ciaos

sometimes when things should be cherished, people don cherish.
sometimes when we want to cherish, we dont have the chance to.
well thats human.tskkkkk

2009-04-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

tmr C div boys and girls having NZ finals! all the best to them and hope both team managed to get champ.
u guys+girls is already a champion in our hearts(:
leaving class at 11am tmr!
team chr chiong ah!

okay now 2nd round of photos

letters and prezzie from our friends b4 e trip(:

lunch at hotel menang with uncle deepak!

aft lunch and then we start to........

the pathetic one having her face on the bed is obviously wenting.hah =X

grp photo taken at lobby

photo with uncle kim boon(womens everest team coach!)

once agn we continue 2 camwhore on the 2nd day.........

okay end of photo sessions for tday.damn tired :/
shall update agn tmr!

2009-04-21T20:06:00.004+08:00

well nothing to elaborate much. just greatful that i have two buddies to cheer me up when im down.
im totally fine now and back on track!

me kammy and yijun! star gazing durg midnight at blacktrack! hah
but the night sky in nepal is more beautiful :( well its nice over there but cold-.-

just to the particular you. sorry if my words were harsh.
if i've hurt you, i don mean it.
so ya im sorry (:

alright ebc pics time. bear with the flooding of pics. cause theres seriously alot.
and around this few days the post will be full or beautiful and stupid pics. hah
and before that i must say that all the ebc photo is ORIGINAL. NO PHOTOSHOP AND 100% PURE PICTURE.hahah.i said this cause the scenery is too beautiful to think its real(:

hmm lets do introduction of the EBC team for this post and the support group all this(:
support group!

shun bian take family photo! haha

well thanks to all the support gp!(:
well all the individuals photo will be a ugly one.haha
it will be uglam pic of everyone.so ya dont kill me uh teammates =P(pray hard mspuah wont see hers.)

da jie aka mrs ang!

ms tay.idk why her face is like that. but candid shot! hahah

cherry's face is always totally covered so ya its difficult to get her pic-.-

melissa!

my roomie-.-" wenting

ok thats me.uglam

yuki!

yellow tee is xiao mei aka pris! dark green is cheryl the dustbin

ms puah

alright above is all the team members!

me and wenting emoing?

nice mountain behind.

alright end of introduction and will continue to upload again on next post(:

and and and i seriously need a hair cut sooooooooooonnnnnnnnnn.
okay wrong should be nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww:(

2009-04-20T13:49:00.003+08:00

sick.
on mc today.
mayb tmr.
or the day after tmr too.

lessons in sch was alright.just seem like racing against time and i felt like giving up.
i rest my case.
having this reluctant feeling of doing or going somewhr/something.maybe its because im lazy.

aiya whatever shit la.
so this is the ending i want?
spenting 2 whole months to get back the blog and finally i got it back today.
but whats the point cause everything just shattered into pieces.
good job man.

A heart ain't a brain
But I think
That I still love you
A happy endin'
Makes you cry
Cause it ends
When you don't want to
And it makes perfect sense
To end it like the start
How do I explain
This nonsense to my heart?

all this crap

2009-04-14T11:30:00.002+08:00

alright im back in spore.
somehow feeling abit weird.just cant get use of what im doing today.
seriously i miss nepal.i miss the team again.
for the past 18days we will wake up early in the morning shivering,then sitting at the window to brush teeth(cause im to lazy to walk down to the 1st level to brush)
had breakfast tgt and crap with them early in the morning. then set off to long hours walk.
at night some of us will have conference tgt talking about IRRITATING people. playing with dajie,xiaomei,yuki,cherry and maid together.taking weird and stupid photos,playing stupid pranks of dajie.
well and everyday seem to pass so fast over there with lotsa crap and tears.
from a "i dont know u well" to a "i know everything about you". haha
we've become a team.a team with the best memories deep down in our hearts.(:
and not forgeting our 2 best nepal guides,tin and krishna.they are very nice people and we treat them like our daddy(:
awaiting for sakura treat and makan with the SWET team when they are back!

okay im gonna brieftly talk about the trip and not gg to talk about everyday there.cause it will be endless.
let start with the environment there.
houses there is like made of wood.and we kind of stay in lodge everyday on our way to ebc.
so when we are in our room talking about some secrets.we tend to talk very soft cause people next door can hear what we were talking about even at night when we snore they also can hear very cleary .every room is being separated by a plank of wood.haha.

streets there are full of cow dungs and rocks. and we tend to accidently sprain our ankle or fall.
got one time when its snowing.and the snow melts and turn into ice. xiao mei din notice and she step on it and fell,then she trip dajie which is infront of her and both of them fell right infront of my eyes.was funny because dajie fell and sat on xiaomei's injury-.- haha
another was worst.i step on ice and fell.then when i stood up i realise at the side of my pants kena green colour cow dung.disgusting like hell man.and the team started laughing-.-
i also kena bird shit on my bag while trekking.and nepalese told me its good like and thats like.wth.

we played alot of pranks together while in nepal.
our room is like inside and ourside can lock.so yar one of my teammate when to lock her roommate inside the room for like two times and we just when to the dining room to play cards for quite long.haha
another one is dajie dont like to put sugar in her drink,so we wanted to put sugar in her lemon drink while shes away.but then ms puah stopped us and she move the drink to her side in order to protect dajie.but in the end she dont know cherry was with us and cherry almost poured the whole bottle of sugar in the drink when ms puah was distracted.everyone laughed like mad and ms puah swop the drink.ahaha
and one more stupid prank is by dajie and xiaomei-.-

one morning when we are walking to the dining room.
-dajie walking towards the tap outside the lodge and said to xiaomei-
dajie: xiaomei you try the water warm or not.
-xiaomei go try and said to da jie-
xiaomei:eh warm leh.
-dajie go try and said-
dajie-eh really warm leh.
soooo. i went over to try also and in the end the water is cold like hell.
in the end kena prank by dajie(mrs ang) and xiaomei(priscilla)

on our way back to singapore,we stay at the lodge again.and i was walking with dajie to the dining room.
she said: eh you really very stupid leh.
then she use water splash me-.-
what kind of teacher is this man. say student stupid.haha
but well we are one happy family.haha

took tons of pics and its like 1000+ in xiaomeis camera.deducting the training photos and dajies stupid face photo we still got around 600 or 700+ of photos for the trip.
well will update those very special ones soon(:

mo thimilai maya gharchu.
this sentence is only for you(:

2009-04-10T12:23:00.003+08:00

hello im back agn but still in nepal. made it up to ebc despite all those obstacles.haha
had lots of snow fight alot the way and craziness.will be back on 13th night and i'll update more soon(:

14th will be off day for ebc girls!(:

whats the point when i tried so hard.
look like its just nothing at all.
fcuk.

2009-03-31T18:35:00.003+08:00

yo peeps.miss me lots? :p
okay im currently in caber cafe now freezing.its day 5 of the trek and things are going aceptable i guess.had 9hrs trek ytd and it was tiring like hell.yuki had headache and things dosent seems well.my cough is giving me alot of probs too.
currently outside its snowing and we are in namche bazaar.i had a new family over here and they are called the 3 sisters! priscillia is my xiao mei.im er jie and mrs ang is my da jie.hahkinda crappy i know.
oh ya.theres sth irritating is must say.we had been treking everyday and the road we are trekking and full of rocks and SHIT! its is the jok/yak(look like cow) shit.they got lotsa shit i can say.cause every time less tha 1m we can see shits along the way.we seem to train ourselves from avoiding the shits instead of treking up the mountain.hahah

i miss the weather in spore now cause its like freezing and 5degrees like that.haha
i miss my dog my bed my friends and you!
ok jianing and weizhen u girls start to miss my presence in class already right.hahah
i'll be back soon okay.
thanks yijun for tagging everyday and those who read the newpaper wanna disturb me uh-.-
and thanks YOU to msg me everyday to give me motivation.well i miss you:/

alright i guess i shall end now.im so excited to reach everest with my stupid cough.haha the scenery here is nice and we are surrounded with lotsa mountain.more than five!
alrights bless us and no one gets ALTITUDE MOUNTAIN SICKNESS(:

yijun and dao huey im sorry that i cant bring back snow/rocks back.cause we are not suppose to bring anything back but memories.but i'll take photo of the rock and show u k daohuey.

AND IM EXCITED TO SHOW U THE PHOTO WITH THE SPECIAL SNOW I MADE FOR YOU(:

2009-03-25T20:09:00.004+08:00

aft 14 days i'll get to see the most beautiful scenery on earth.hopeing that u'll get to see it with me and holding on to what we had once hold on before.
thou i know aft the trip im gonna miss alot of lessons but it cant compare how much i'll be missing you too.
i dont know what will happen aft this trip but im praying for the good.
tsk
breaking identity

alrights.aft tmr im goneeeeeeeeeee.for good

anw past few days was a tiring one for me.cause i kept eating med and caused me to feel damn drowsy durg lesson.had to force open my big big eyes to be attentive and thats damn torturing :/
monday morning assembly was a paiseh one cause ebc girls being called out and stand infront to show our face.P called us sweet lill lady infront of the whole sch and now my classmates is disturbing me :S hah.
tues had gear check aft sch and i realised my bag aint as full as others. was kinda worried that i may miss out sth impt to bring and hopefully that wont happen.
this morning was being called out again and had meetin with P.prayed tgt and talk about new interview. i was super duper suay to lose the stupid ohyabehyasom and i had to be interviewed by the newpaper-.-

in 14days time we will be reaching our goal and get to see the most beautiful scenery on earth.
awaits~

alright pics time!
best+tiring time i had with ebc mates(:

trekking at mt faber when it was rainin like cats n dogs

nice place at mt faber!

me and wt trying to catch e food with our mouth haha

playing stupid games durg training agn.hah

the long long long stairs we had to climb durg bukit timah hill trg :(

day 1 endurance camp...

camp! on our journey walkin to sembawang from sch with yijun joining us at the right side!lol

exhausted ms tay aft the long walk

as doing treks is v boring due to we will be walkin walkin and walking.
so me yuki and wenting use our raincoat to collect water and splash at each other to have fun!

how we look like aft climbing 25 storey high blk-.-
tiring leh

preparing for trg(:
day two of camp.....
while we were suppose to watch mt everest video aft our morning run we ended up...

cheryl dozed off!!

i trying my best not to slp and cherry is awake cause she slept aft we finish running-.-"

no doubts,thats ms tay and shes asleep too!

march holiday vaccination...

me and wenting havin chem "lesson" while waitin at tan tock seng hospital

listening how many jabs we will be taking.hahaha

thats all peeps.wont be updating till im back in a piece(:
ciaos and takecare!

2009-03-20T18:43:00.003+08:00

7 days 7 days 7 days!
im not excited im not hyper im not awaiting for that day.eh wait,mayb im awaiting for that day-.-

im saddddddddddddd.cos i gonna miss my bed,my garfield,my dog,my friends,my sch table and miss you!yea u know u know that YOU(:

seriously i think aft i come back i'll be a no life person,i haven plan what to do aft i come back. i know first thing i'll be thinking of is YOU. YAR YAR! 就是那个 YOU! haha okay im being stupid here :P
currently im sick like dono what shit and i feel that my body is so light untill i can float to th sky.
hopefully i'll be fine before ebc trip,if not i really spent $3000 to torture myself for the past few months-.-
ebc last training officially ended on wednesday.and ytd went to sch train with the girls.oh its shimins bird day so yea happy b'day girl.as usual we played with the cake.training end earlier thanks to the xue lians.headed home asap cause i feel like fainting. went to see doc and she wanted to give me a jab cause i over cough?! lmao. i reject it last night but this afternoon i've no choice but to take that jab cos i cough till i taste blood? bloody hell.hahah

hmmmm i have two choice now.recover by today then i can go spore on saturday just to...erhem.ya
or dont recover so that im able to enjoy ur sayang much much much more? haha

i seriously hope that time will stop last night so i could get back the feeling we used to have.
but i know time aint gonna stop for me :(
this world is super duper unfair mans.
some words should be said.

theres nothing i would not try

2009-03-17T19:01:00.005+08:00

10more days......tskk

tmr 21km! omg i dont know will i survive not cause im still ill-.-
went to sch in the morning with red eyes nd i dont know what happen to my eyes too. had SPA for both chem and bio.it was fun plus HOT,cause i ran to lesson and im wearin a sleeveless inside my shirt.so i took off my shirt-.-
aft SPA went garage to watch marley and me.damn relax and cold inside-.-,headed to cwp for my first meal of the day and now im back home exhausted.siannnnnnnnnn

will i find u there?
:/
all the weird thoughts is making me to worry.

fixing a broken heart-obsession indecent
******************************************************************
here was nothing to say
The day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I held a taxi in the rain
Looking for someplace to ease the pain
Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart
******************************************************************

2009-03-15T21:19:00.003+08:00

camp over! okay i did enjoy the camp. friday night was trekking from woodlands to sembawang then back agn. yijun joined us nd we crap lotsa stuffs/anti mrs ang. poor thing. hahs. lights off at 12plus and everyone drop dead and fell asleep. woke up at 5.30am next morning and run. our final destination is breakfast so i think our speed did increase? lol rested from 8am till 11am. inbetween that break time we played big two/uno and stressed. aft tt watch mt everest video on how ppl die there .in the end we fell asleep-.-
rushed to sch hall at 11 and got back my results. not very please with my results yet cause i know i can do better. got F9 for chinese and i feel that its damn stupid cause i din do his work. hahaha. but who cares cause i got a good chinese teacher now :D
aft parent meetin went cycle gym and blahs. aft tt rush home dinner tgt with two smart girls and movie(:
waiting for pric to send me pics then i can upload.
more pics coming on!

been havin a hectic week but i know this remaining 12days wont be any better. im freaking sick like crap now and i hate coughs. but i love last night.

all right adios peeps!

its just like a clap and everything will be gone.
but still aft one month.
the empty space deep down in my heart
is still reserved for you.
just only for you
简简单单的几个字形容不了这一切

2009-03-12T19:54:00.005+08:00

endurance camp!

ah wells. been feeling sick this feel days.i hate sore throat and coughs. :/
anw went sch gym ytd and ran at black track at 8.30pm.quite cool i like the feeling(:

well sch stuffs is really getting me crazy. i lost my geo ans sheet and i've to redo the stupid 29 questions again and its totally damn frustrating but i've no choice cause i've to hand up file. this is not the first time i lost my ans sheet.and that time i lost ans sheet with 33Q and i had to redo it twice cause i lost the paper two times. sometimes i really feel like tearing the geo Q paper up-.-! eng file also making me damn sian.gonna complete alot of work and i left one more to go,but no inspiration so totally dont feel like doing at all.haha
anw i got into cheena got banding and im in band 1. dont know is it lucky or suay. lucky is that i got into a good class and wenting siman jianing are in the same class as me. suay is because they started to gang up and come irritate me by imitate how i talk and the teacher confirm give us tons of work to do-.-
now days almost all sub are in banding except for cme and pe. heard that there will be pe for banding too O.o aft tt i joke about having banding durg recess. those who eat very fast sit at one side then those who eat very slow sit at the other side then those who dont eat go outside. haha

m+u=?
i hope its a good ans :/

counting down:15days

How Do You Sleep (Rhythmic Remix Feat. Ludacris) - Jesse McCartney

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missin' you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep

2009-03-08T16:47:00.002+08:00

why is this freaking thing going on and on again?!

19 more days and im setting off to nepal.physical preparation for ebc i think can increase more cause i seriously need smth to vent on.temper now days was super bad.people around me tend to kena by me and im very sorry. lots of things had happened and everything dont seem easy to solve at all.everything is getting worst and im freaking tired.i've managed to take a break today and everything just go through my mind over and over again. i feel like falling flat on the floor and brain dead.i feel like running away.

i only hope you wont change anything at all.if you want it to be gone,time is all it takes.

yesterday was,chaos morning,aftnoon trg,subway dinner,snooker/pool night.
spent my friday night with kammy and yijun.romantic dinner at black track till 12plus.haha.
music,tealight candles,drinks,star gazing,true or truth.
this morning when i was travelling back to msia feeling damn moody,sunshine appear!haha.
saw ee jia ying at mrt station and we like 0123456789 years never meet/contact at all.and her first reaction was to pinch me and thats like wth-.- chat for awhile and i rushed back home.thanks to her, my morning turn out better.

listen.
cause every key is touching my heart.
although theres no hole in my shoe,
theres a big hole in my heart,
waiting for you here to mend.
i know its not going to work,
but somehow something kept me going,
standing right here at this place,
waiting for you to turn back.

are you willing to do so?

2009-03-05T17:41:00.006+08:00

tmr 7th.but its not there anymore
playing on repeat.cause im still holding tight

ytd 16km run changed to stair climb 20times.
gonna run up stairs for even no.s of time and walk up stairs for odd no.s of time.
so we ran ten times up the 12 storey high blk and another ten times by walking.
at dono ten time plus realized my knee not working well and it seriously sucks to have that kind of feeling.kept on going cause i dont feel like givin up at all.everyone managed to hit the target and thats a great thing(:

every ebc girls are very stress esp for the sec 4s.cheer up k wenting(:
i also have tons of work and i kept delayin in.gonna finish lots of work by tmr .eng,geo,math,chem,esp bio and poa!
kinda disappointed today cause i totally screwed up my poa test.morning then rmb got test and thats like wtf.
it will be less than 3 more weeks and we are setting off to nepal.we must and we have to cope with everyth no matter what happens.encouragin each other when we are about to fall.cause no one is slacking and everyone is suffering including the teachers.i really hope the summit will make us feel better(:

EBC GIRLS

anw sat flag day and i seriously dont want to go :( hopefully i can excuse from it and go trg! :D
flag day seriously spoils my saturday-.-

idk why,being random.
i miss you

2009-03-03T22:31:00.002+08:00

everytime when i feel like saying somthing to you,
i'll tend to type it down and save it as draft in the memories we once had.
hoping this could make me feel better.
but i doubt this is going to work.

tmr EBC trg! 16km at yishun canal :O
maybe that long distance can help me vent out things(:
ahwell ahwell.ebc jia you ba!

oh ya! friday elearning day, no sch!!!im gonna spent my fri slpin/playin/daydreamin.
haha

thou i can uds ppl well but it still don mean anyth at all
cause i failed to know what u're thinking.

2009-03-01T20:51:00.005+08:00

alright back to blog!

ytd trg was funnnnnnnn.trekking under the rain again with our cute cute rain coat-.-
rain was damn heavy till im still wet even im wearin rain coat la.haha.
we climb 4/3 times of 25 storey high blk and almost wanna die cause we are carryin 7 kg load-.-
mt faber was damn nice man.nice place to go(:
me and wenting collect rain water to splash yuki cause she use rain water to splash us.haha did alot of stupid things also-.-
i think im gonna damn hyper nowdays la.took alot of photos too and its with pris the photographer.shall upload photo aft she send me!

anw today went out with siman and maxine to study.went serene eat icecream study aft tt went subway near the salvation army there.sat there from 3 plus till 7 plus.din really study at subway cause we chat alot and its like really alot-.-
then suddenly maxine THE PRO emo.thinkin of.........i shall not say.lol

aft tt home swt home!

i don want i don want i dont want.
it kept me thinking about every single thing
i dont get what you mean at all.
im just havin this feelin i used to have before,
and im not suppose to tell you cause i'll cross the limit you want to have
i just dont know how to say out to you.
tskkkkk

Bye Bye.mp3 - Mariah Carey

2009-02-27T20:36:00.007+08:00

well well well.this week is really a chaos week.things happened one aft one.
kinda wonder how next week gonna be?

was drench on two consecutive days,wed and thurs.and i din had flu/fever at all!
okay crappies :/

oh ya i haven bought my trekking boots yet.the freaking boots cost me like 100+/200+ and i'll be wearing it one time only.superb waste sia.and tmr having training again but we've changed venue to mt faber! alright hopefully its fun and not as tiring at bukit timah.

i realized my right hand has alot of bruises cause people sitting on my right side always likes to pinch my hand in class to revenge.almost everyday kena pinch one time.and now my hand got 3 nice blue black-.- wonder how my hand will look like durg end of this year.tsktsktsk

alright i think i shall end here.feel like vomiting alr :/

how do i get someone better once i've had the best you?
i dont know why it impacts me alot and i really dont like the way you react
maybe i care too much about it already
if you could see the hidden words in this post, can you see the hidden words in my heart?

2009-02-22T18:38:00.002+08:00

yoz

friday was a fun day to me nd idk why.maybe because durg recess sitting with 4e1 boys chionging to finish the food first was damn exciting.LOL
aft sch went trg and reach bro house at forgot what time-.-

saturday EBC trg.everyone of us was trekkin from mc ritchie to bukit timah hill under the heavy rain.the feel was damn fun and shiok.everyone of us put on rain coat and it seems useless-.- si man look like turtle with her rain coat! haha.oh ya me wenting siman and mrs ang like one gossip clique.talked thru out the whole journey and me wenting siman acting like paparazzi asking alot of personal Q abt mrs ang.lol.
aft the journey everyone was drench and we dry up ourselves and headed down to beach road for
trekking shoes.no one din manage to buy the shoes and we settle our dinner there tgt.aft tt blahblahblah and home swt home(:

24 more days of hair check.i must pray super duper hard that i wont kena caught :/

mrs ang!

okay photo bucket loading damn slow.will upload other pics again(:

at first the dream made me thought it was real.
but after i check my inbox,i realise it was a dream afterall
how i miss......

2009-02-19T17:39:00.003+08:00

okay im back on track!
had two days of self declared holis on mon and tues.
went out on mon in the afternoon with kammy and yijun to help them job hunt.had steamboat tgt at night till 10++
tues i oly went to sch after everyone's lesson end and attend math remedial-.- i also dont know why i'll go remedial.hah

wed went back to sch and i was so stressed with mrs -----'s work! she like to bomb us with alot of work made me dont feel like doing any of her work lah.arghh.
well at least now i've managed to finish like 50% of her work and im gonna chiong the remaining soon i guess? haha

from today onwards im gonna race against time man.
remedials,trainings,lessons,ebc training.
after i come back from nepal im gonna chiong on driving theory and Os.
im going to let myself superb busy.(:

maxine toh xin yi! pls dont always use ur pen draw my leg la-.-
now my leg got mark alr lor.tsktskkk.
hah

wanted to let u know what i meant in that blog.but in the end i think u got the wrong idea-.-
and i've to update a new post for you.
i think im just delaying it.

2009-02-15T13:32:00.003+08:00

even though i tried my very best to suppress my feelings.
it still hurts alot more from what i expect.
心真得很痛很痛。just someone teach me how to forget everything in 1 sec.
cause i really cant take it anymore.i just cant do it alone
i feel like numbing myself,i even thought of waiting.
what am i doing again?
its breaking into bits and piece and i still thought of putting it back one by one.

im not alright.i dont feel like going school.
im going crazy.

2009-02-14T12:48:00.003+08:00

let pics do the talking

last day with aussie pe teacher. lisa and kate :/ laura went home alr.

actually oly me weizhen and jianing wanna take photo with two of them.then sudd almost everyone run towards us and in the end it became like this.haha

thats what they will do in class-.-.durg lesson sommore!

if u're thinking that 4e1 always pay 100% attention in class.

this photo shows that u are wrong!lol-.-

the oly male aussie teacher in our sch.

P.S:notice something flying behind? OH THATS A UFO-.-!

okay craps-.- haha

me maxine siman(:

happy Vday to everyone out there!(:

my precious valentine with bukit timah hill today :(

well are you going to give me a happy valentine or a sad one?

2009-02-12T20:32:00.003+08:00

im getting more and more tired everyday. :/
ytd EBC trg was tired but fun. run 5km and i tried to follow mrs ang pace for the last 300m and seriously her pace is small and fast-.-! no wonder shes so fit.haha.
aft our running we stand at black track trying to do some yoga.i cant bend down more than 90 degrees and mrs ang tryin to help me-.-. after that me siman mrs ang and wenting trying to act injured cause we are too tired to climb stairs with 5kg load but in the end we still need to climb.
almost everyone of us was superb hungry when we're climbing the stair cause we are climbing with empty stomach and residents in that block almost all level can smell of food.i was whinning to mrs ang and ppl behind me that im hungryyyyyyy :(
trg untill 9 plus and then went cwp to find dinner.saw kammy they all and then chat for awhile aft that home sweet home(:

i was late for sch today and being sent to the stupid room-.- today was damn shag in class and i never pay attention at all.feel like slping.skipped remedial today aft tt home sweet home.

oh ya,this is jesline lim zimin's masterpiece.

she drew this on my hand when we're having bio lessons.
she drop art and i think u guys know whats the reason.haha

trying to help me wash away what she'd drew-.-

this one is my stupid master piece on her hand durg geo lesson

super joker i knw-.-

my class(:

i spent the whole day thinking alot.
its really hard to let go and i wanna hold on to something thats really impt to me.
m i doing the right thing or the wrong thing?
i feel so helpless.

breakingidentity.

2009-02-09T20:53:00.005+08:00

pics durg EBC (:

yishun canal before run

bukit timah climb(:

notice the teacher behind me?no doubts she a teacher and shes likes to bully me alot! >:(
and shes my math remedial teeeeecharrrrrrrrrr.omg :/

was out for the whole last night to pool with clique.i was just simply staring at the pool table and din play much at all.played till 3am plus rushed home and went to sch.reach sch at 7 plus when it starts at 8.45-.- balled with willy bernard and zhengyu at the court like siao before we went back class.
when lesson starts i start to went crazy.talk and crap alot of stuffs.whining to jianing and weizhen every moment and they asked me not to come sch tmr cause im sucha nusiance T.T
i tried to make myself damn high till some jokes were created.
E.G
(durg geo lesson was talking to ivy lim)
xinfang:我的心好痛ahhhhh
ivy:不要痛，我给你爱。
xinfang+ivy:HAHAHAHA!
jitao not one stupid mans.

(durg chem lesson weizhen dono how to do some particular Q)
weizhen:xinfang这个怎样做？
xinfang: *trying to use normal tone to teach her*
weizhen: aiyurh 你做么那么温柔？！我肚子痛了啦。
xinfang: WTF SIA　ＹＯＵ？！

because of my crazy mood today,stupid things created without any logic-.-
and i freaking screw up my geo test today cause i forgot theres test-.-! same goes to my math test cause i mixed up the X&Y axis(damn stupid i know).tskkkkkkkkkk

oh yar.and my cheeenaa teacher dug his nose today la!(in class)
ashdgsjbhfksdh.erxin daoooooooo.everyone trying to siam his hand man.disgusting freako :/
aft sch went to citylink with yijun and talked alot throughout the whole journey.
everything just makes me dont know what to decide.and i know i dont like this empty feeling at all :(
i think i choose to be the dumbdumb to try again.i dont know what to do now except for holding on.

anw ebc trip will be set of early again.not 28march anymore :/ hope before i go.everything will be alright.tsk

2009-02-08T17:23:00.003+08:00

back to blog!
currently im down with high fever and it raise up to 48.1 this morning.-.-!
jitao not suay dao had to go back msia take one jab.tsk
im feeling so fit ytd and im feeling damn weak today.damn stupid mans
just woke up from my beauty slp and i gotta chiong my homework.hopefully i still rmb i need to do what homework.haha.

anws fri trg im quite happy to see the juniors progress(:
everyone put in extra effort.but i know theres still more to go.
if they continue to train like this,results durg the game will be good.

saturday morning went back sch to run.aft tt breakfast with siman maxine and aidah.rushed back home slp for an hr then went to climb bukit timh hill.my body was damn shag that day la.
we faster went to do our 2 circuits and it started raining.quickly prepare ourself and then bus-ed back home with cherry siman wenting and yuki.bus trip was funny cause we started sharing some topics on.erhem.hahah.wellwell cherry dont smile to yourself anymore la.LOL

oh ya.tmr gonna intro ourselves to upper sec.wahlao we dont want la.like sooooo -.-!
wed before training gonna meet mrs yeo.thats even more fasinating mans.
we were saying that scarli when we talk to us she bombed us to write 300words essay why we wanna go mount everest.that will be like.tio 4D liao-.-
*pray hard* i dont wanna kena 4D

i feel so... for not having an idea to make u smile.
and i hope its only because we're busy and not other reasons.

2009-02-01T13:14:00.007+08:00

my whole body is aching like dono what ever shit :/
and i got a big big blueblack at my thigh:(
oh well yesterday managed to hit the target.
and i din went to coach house bai nian :/

i still got eng homework and test to study by today.
oh well im seriously tiredddddddddd.
i scared that i cant concentrate today.
ahhhhhhh someone save me..
nd im blasting music like nobody's business again

i know sometimes just gonna rain
but i hope you will really understand.
dont push me away gain.
cause i cant slp through the pain

ciao

step down?
hopefully im stepping down.
but i dont feel that way at all.
i need a break.

2009-01-29T21:10:00.003+08:00

cny is currently like gg to end soon:/ so boring~
alright.ytd i skipped school and went for two movies with two hardworking girl.
its like whenever theres free slots in between the time,they never fails to study one-.-!

anw sch today was like abit better i guess?poa lesson me jianing this girl beside me and srijan was like talking about the karimun trip,prom night.haha.and both girl beside me wanna book me for prom night to be their partner.jitao not abit early man.hahaha

then durg eng lesson is was a torture for me because theres two act cute girl keep vandalise my paper,book,table.its like i try to erase left,the girl on my right will vandalise-.- its like i almost spent the whole one hour tryin to erase what they wrote.damn tiring.
maxine toh xin yi.better dont vandalise anymore if not i confirm torture you to death man.haha.

oh wells gonna end here i guess.haha
sat having EBC trg at BT.jiayou mans.

2009-01-24T18:34:00.002+08:00

i think i lost track of my time already.
its like the clock in my body has stopped.
tmr is new year eve and i dont feel excited at all.i dont even feel like gg out or celebrate.
when my mom asked me to go back indonesia today i even reject her and told her i wanna stay at home(not to emo-.-)

was out for the whole night ytd with sis and gay.haha
we were suppose to spent the whole night in the club but then we ended up balling in the court with candles around us till 6plus.reach home bath and then slpt for 2hrs like that and don have the slping mood anymore.did all my maths homework and thats kinda miracle for some of ur cause im not the hardwork one.haha
spent all my afternoon doing housework washing clothes throwing my stuffs nd arrangin my room.
i think im gonna start revisin on my bio aft i blogged.

i guess im trying real hard to make myself busy nd stop thinkin about somethings.
oh well hopefully it works.i just need something/someone to let all my feelings out.but what or who?

recently geron keep saying:"Love is like a drug with no rehabilitation program and it has side effects. it may cause excessive smiling, daydreaming, and happiness. Are you willing to take that risk?"
haha.so are u willing to take that risk?

2009-01-21T22:30:00.003+08:00

well well.sch nowdays had been damn tired for me.packed schedules,rushing hours.
i managed to clear all my homeworks before sch ends everyday.so at night i no need stay up late to do those work anymore.

ebc trip coming soon within 2 months!so damn excited and scared too.need to get clearence from our dear P and hopefully nothin will happen before/durg the trip.
had EBC talk just now from 6 plus till 9.made me look damn forward to the trip luh.
but bad thing is the trip is 18days and i gonna skip 12 days of lessons.and of cause i will miss gumgum alot x a million:( tskkkkkk.but its kinda rare oppo for us and im so gonna cherish it.

well done all the blogging i guess.lazy to talk much.tmr lesson till 4pm :/ not funnnnnnnn.

ciaos~